love and hate and indifference

the worst place to be in

is indifference...

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not love, not hate

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but indifference...

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because indifference means there is no emotional attachments or feelings towards anybody, not even an ounce, almost strangers

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even strangely enough, you cannot hate unless you love somehow...

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when you hate something, it is because you love something else... 

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the absence of love is not hate...

its indifference

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love and hate are strong emotions

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and somehow that is why its very hard to move away from something that you have strong emotional attachments to, it almost to the extent you need to HATE the thing to get away...

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you can never be indifferent again. or maybe you could...

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haha

i guess the best way to tackle things is to adopt a light hearted approach to everything

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and i learnt how to love friends without expecting too much back, because its the expectations that bring disappointments

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"so daniel you bought the most expensive ....?"(Lejon's mom)

"no lah"(Dan)

"Almost is it?"(Lejon's mum)

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lol that was really really awkward... haha

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I think I was mad... really crazy

but nevermind it was worth it all the same 

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after all

"its more blessed to give than to receive"

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maybe I can start rebuilding the bridges that I burnt...

haha

on the basis that I have nothing in mind anyway... haha

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and I'll guard my heart more carefully now

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wonder whether i should just let it be... 

was glad after i saw an email from the Y5 FireAC people

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haha, its encouraging to see the group doing a good job

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but somehow... maybe i dunno lah...

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"its not worth it, few months of happiness for a really long period of S***"(Wesley)

"its not worth it, touch the kettle and find that its hot"(tim)

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so... love, hate, or indifference?