finally found time to post =) (CNY BREAK)
Ok since Marcus Requested for me to post on choir camp i will briefly touch on 1 aspect, Not going to bother with the things like LoL , Murder game etc(since they are almost the same every year)
Camp worship
Lead worship for the camp,
Anyway i was glad to see that people really singing out loud properly this time as compared to the previous years dead sessions...
Heart of worship ... ... i was comforted that His presence could be felt... i daresay at least some of them were meaning the words they sang from their hearts... and offering it up to God.
Kenneth's message was direct and to the point , although it lacked a charisma I was hoping for... hopefully the people didn't switch off( i Daresay he commands enough respect). Pity i cannot openly have a evangelical message... ... i guess its up to the individual including me to personally reach out to the lost sheep( i talked to Rodney about Christianity the night before)
Mess ups ...
Definitely 1 ..... despite what Marcus Teo describes in his blog
1.Forgetting to pray at times.
Musical excellence does not equate good worship
Good worship comes from the heart
if Our hearts is not ready....
Our worship is nothing more then "good music"
Other stuff on that day
Was unable to go for BB due to the Camp + forgot to bring BB attire :(
Apparently there was some form of spiritual attack on the primers that day( discord / unable to pray)
Tessa's Dream....
Dream that she died, went to hell, and saw the devil cutting up a body
Prophetic: the devil is trying to create disunity and discord within us among the primers and FireAC people.
Further events along the week.
(Warning: the stuff below is very personal )
Nearly ended up hating XL (jealousy).... sighz stupid BGR stuff.
Even I liked someone... well i wouldn't try to sort of initiate or display anything, on the contary i might even end up Daoing the person ... as a sort of defense against being trapped in a BGR prematurely.
In addition I wouldn't have the confidence or shamelessness (think Sam Yong's singing telegram)
Normally that would work out fine... after sometime the emotion might subside and nothing more happens, or at least i push it to the back of my mind.
For this instance... not so easy... emotionally... roller coaster emotion... most horrible sensation i ever had.
1 side of me envied & want to hate XL
the other side keeps reminding me: XL is your Friend and Fellow brother in Christ.
What happened to Primer rule number 2?
Quote( Mr Charles Ng)
Rule number 2: no BGRs from Primers... ...
But after talking to Tim about it... felt a lot better... and now I am thankful to God for his joy He's given me ... to still know that He loves me , that is more than enough for me.
Quote(Jeremiah 29:11 )
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
And he has a plan for me, and his plan is way better than any plan i could think of(aka existentialist way ,for the TOK freaks)
I surrender All
All to Jesus, I surrender;
All to Him I freely give;
I will ever love and trust Him,
In His presence daily live.
I surrender all, I surrender all,
All to Thee, my blessed Savior,
I surrender all.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
Take me, Jesus, take me now.
All to Jesus, I surrender;
Make me, Savior, wholly Thine;
Let me feel the Holy Spirit,
Truly know that Thou art mine.
All to Jesus, I surrender;
Lord, I give myself to Thee;
Fill me with Thy love and power;
Let Thy blessing fall on me.
All to Jesus I surrender;
Now I feel the sacred flame.
O the joy of full salvation!
Glory, glory, to His Name!
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Dear Lord:
In Your timing in accordance to Your Plan , Mould my life the way You want me to be Lord. Take this life of mine Lord, and Lord use it according to Your plan .
Lord I thank You for the works you done in my life and I trust in Your Unfailing Love.For You alone are God eternal , throughout earth and heaven above. Thank You for the Cross Lord, & the price You paid for me. You are my God in whom I can trust, You are my fortress, deliverer, shield and my strength. There is no Love like Yours, You love satisfies my desire.
Teach me Lord to be still and know you are God. Open the eyes and ears of my heart , let me see You and hear You.
In Christ most precious Name
Amen
XL seems a bit confused at the moment? I dunno his Msn nick is fishy("what is love?")
Pray for him.... for God's guidance.
Lessons learnt from this incident
1. Contrary from what i believed at first I am not invulnerable to BGR problems (despite or perhaps because of knowing close to nothing about BGR).
2. Only after I was completely honest with myself, and surrendered all to God , then did the problem subside.
3. If a mere "crush" can lead to such....nonsense, imagine God's Real love, and when we turn away from him to our other idols. Ouch....
4. If God is for us, who can be against us? (Romans 8 : 31) Ha Ha satan, you are no match for Our God
Random thought:
A Broken and Fatherless Generation.
Many people today are fatherless in the literal or figurative sense.
but God will turn this generation into a Dancing Generation For Him.
Amen
