Vista owns?

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lol that's funny

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the comments are better

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apparently people blindly read the title without watching the vid

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ah well

random post

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after yet another BAD experience with windows... darn virus...

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luckily my sis is overseas

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DIY

or else?

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oh well

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why... ...

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Everything

Everything - Tim Hughes

Verse 1 :

God in my living

There in my breathing

God in my waking

God in my sleeping

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God in my resting

There in my working

God in my thinking

God in my speaking

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Chorus:

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

Be my everything

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Verse 2:

God in my hoping

There in my dreaming

God in my watching

God in my waiting

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God in my laughing

There in my weeping

God in my hurting

God in my healing

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Bridge:

Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me the hope of glory

You are everything

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Christ in me

Christ in me

Christ in me the hope of glory

Be my everything

*note it seems that off an on the video becomes "not available" , try reloading until it works

bleah

Paul Washer on R/S

saw this on (Mr) Nicholas Chen's blog

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ah well

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attraction to 'personality'... while I've hated sensuality, yet it seems...  

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what is virtue? biblical beauty?

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building up... 

the walk with God

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it seems... 

but yet...

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it doesn't mean...

i can go ahead...

and flaunt a basic rule... if it was even possible anyway...

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just because...

i think in that way...

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and from experience

emotions can cloud reasoning

and lead one astray

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guard ones heart

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There is a time and place for everything...

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---

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and it seems that its time for me to do my World Lit

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bleah

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i dont know

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I dont want to think...

the joy and the pain...

you know

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somethings give joy..

others give pain

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but above all

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He's in control

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surrendering all to Him

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I Offer My Life - Don Moen

Verse 1:

All that I am, all that I have 

I lay them down before You O Lord 

All my regrets, all my acclaim 

The joy and the pain, I'm making them Yours 

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Chorus: 

Lord I offer my life to You 

Everything I've been through 

Use it for Your glory 

Lord I offer my days to You 

Lifting my praise to You 

As a pleasing sacrifice 

Lord I offer You my life 

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Verse 2:

Things in the past, things yet unseen 

Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true 

All of my hopes, all of my plans 

My heart and my hands are lifted to You.

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I wonder

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apologia ...

adoratio ... 

quapropter...

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yet 

-

ah well 

it doesn't matter does it?

painful or not it maybe...

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love God wholeheartedly

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Way tired of Knowing

This post shall be devoted to utter RANDOMNESS

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ah well

EE is dead

ToK will die tmr 

YAY

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emotions AFFECT THE WAY WE KNOW

ktnksbye

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PRECONCEIVED IDEAS come from emotions

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hence the old joke:

"eh that girl looked at me , I think she likes me"

(when the guy actually likes the girl, and the girl is just behaving her normal self)

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oh course references to the RoD presentation done by Tim, Wesley, Cao, Asher &  YJ)

" oh my math teacher gave me star... I think she likes me"

" oh my mum washed my clothes... I think she likes me"

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Rarr the  essay IS DONE

1596 words

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its almost over

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now for

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CASEETOKIA

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CAS LOGGING

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Irritating Assignments

or internal assessments 

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ah well

need to work on EVERYTHING ELSE

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oh well

I need to destress too

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S***w Perception

S***w Reasoning

S***w Language

EMOTIONS OWNS YOUR MUM

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lol

I'm starting to sound psychopathic

ah well

lapses in sanity occur

when one has indulged in thinking too much

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empty your mind of everything....

let the essence flow...

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lol 

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yoga is rubbish...

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Song of joy...

http://5implyworship.blogspot.com/search?q=%27i+wish%22

It suddenly occurred to me that the number of times the phrase "I wish" appears on my blog is ridiculous

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oh well

back to choir

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skipping the yoga thingy... while most people says its okay, i say it 'might' be okay , but I'll rather be safe than sorry

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Ding...

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and a nice jazzy a cappella arrangement to learn..

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The Way You Look Tonight

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some day...

when I'm awfully low...

when the world is cold...

I will feel a glow...

just thinking of you...

and the way you look tonight...

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but you're lovely...

with your smile so warm...

and your cheeks so soft...

there is nothing for me but to love... you...

just the way you look tonight

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with each word...

your tenderness grows...

tearing my fear...apart...

and that laugh....

that wrinkles your nose...

touches my foolish heart...

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you're lovely...

never never change...

keep that breathless charm...

won't you please arrange it...

'cause I love... you...

just the way you look... tonight...

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FireAC this morning

something new

something refreshing

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blessed be Your name

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in whatever circumstance

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Blessed be Your name

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cause when we see You, we find strength to face the day...

life and debt

RoD over,....

but I shall not bother to post a post, although BB is something dear to me, yet whatever I would like to have said can be found in the email I sent... and perhaps some of these stuff are best kept to the small group... ... ...

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been exceedingly tired out and depressed/sian lately, due to a large influx of datelines...

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positive feedback:

stimulus causes feedback that results in an increase in stimulus

=.=

seems to work that way

stimulus is the homework

homework-> stress

stress-> don't want to do homework

don't want to do homework-> more homework...

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ah well

FireAC:

Your Name

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... Lord give us strength to live for You, and glorify Your Name... 

worship/prayer

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Biology class today:

Issue of cancer:

"no point getting it treated, because going to die anyway... might as well spend the money enjoy yourself before you die" (Mdm Yong)

"but aren't there cases of healing...?"(Amanda)

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i dunno why

but somehow

yeah...

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I remember a prayer I used to utter every night in primary 6, was just a  new believer then, had no idea what Qt meant or being a christian was then...

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"Heavenly Father:

thank you for this day you've given me

I pray you make papa well again, and I pray that you'll help me not to get into trouble in school and do well in my PSLE

and I also pray that I'll grow to know You more

in Jesus Name I Pray

Amen"

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I guess the last part of that prayer was answered eventually...

but I remember... i didnt know what to pray after the February of 2003, PSLE over, and oh well i remember the church , the pallor, the coffin, the whiteness, the blackness

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and one thing they told me, he's gone to a better place...

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so maybe

a lot of times

life isn't exactly the best thing isn't it

when there is so much more than just it, more after it

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which is why

i never understood the concept of 

"life is short, treasure it"

maybe a better understanding would be

"life is short, make the most of it"

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ah shucks

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"are you parents fetching you"

"my mum is fetching me"

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that's so common...

-

oh well

if only:

the memories would go

and leave me cold

and let me go

away from ...

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boo....

210

the strangest things happen

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maybe.. I've been better these 2 day, less emo, more bubbly, although...

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but i wonder if, for particular reasons?

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or its just a matter of the rain clouds clearing up a bit, a little sunshine in, a little smiles here and there

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and laughing at the tests of life, laughing at Tim...

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in a sense... some stuff , the more you think and brood over it, the more painful it becomes

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I guess, we need to just remember the old times as good times that God provided, and he took away... 

we thank God for those times

we remember those times not with regret or sadness because of the lost, but as good times

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and life just goes on

-

its fairly simple, Trust that God is in control

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post number 210

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class of 2.10 dan (2004)

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CT: Wong Ping Loong

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ah well

haha

those were tough times, funny times, and well...

-

but they still remain with me, the good, the bad, the ugly

-

but God is Good all the time =)

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no greater love

I still wish...

but nmind ...

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looking through the pictures with Tim...

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it sounded weird and surreal

and i wonder why...

-

some things need to be waited out

-

but maybe not in that sense

more like God will provide in His time

-

finding joy... in Him, not from anyone else

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Somethings i see around me, it hurts like a sword cutting deep into my heart. 

I don't show it, I simply don't want to, after all, it is none of my business.

-

maybe I'm just too sensitive

-

found myself singing this as I went up alone to chapel after FireAC...

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At the Cross

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Oh Lord You searched me

You know my way

Even when I fail You

I know You love me

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Your holy presence

Surrounding me

In every season

I know You love me

-

At the Cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me

There's no greater love than this

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You have overcome the grave

Your glory fills the highest place

What can separate me now?

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You go before me

You shield my way

Your hand upholds me

I know You love me

-

At the Cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me

There's no greater love than this

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You have overcome the grave

Your glory fills the highest place

What can separate me now?

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You tore the veil

You made a way

When you said that it is done

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And when the earth fades

Falls from my eyes

And You stand before me

I know You love me

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it is a very emotional song

-

yet beyond the emotions, it represents something, the extravagant love of God.

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Psalm 139:1-12

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¹ O LORD, You have searched me 

and You know me.

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² You know when I sit and when I rise; 

You perceive my thoughts from afar.

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³ You discern my going out and my lying down; 

You are familiar with all my ways.

-

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue 

You know it completely, O LORD.

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⁵ You hem me in—behind and before; 

You have laid your hand upon me.

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⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, 

too lofty for me to attain.

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⁷ Where can I go from Your Spirit? 

Where can I flee from Your presence?

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⁸ If I go up to the heavens, You are there; 

if I make my bed in Sheol You are there.

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⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn, 

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

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¹⁰ even there Your hand will guide me, 

Your right hand will hold me fast.

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¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me 

and the light become night around me,"

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¹² even the darkness will not be dark to You; 

the night will shine like the day, 

for darkness is as light to You.

memories

there was a time...

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trying to force feed Jeremy with vinegar+ Tabasco/curry sauce

Choir Seniors' Dinner, breeks @ AMK

Nov 2005

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yeah...

and we sang a song together

Alvar, Kevin, Han An, Martin, Shaun, Stuart, Song Yeong, Bryan, Ding

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Lol Ding and I still were singing alto then

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how about love..... measuring love

Seasons of love....

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haha

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and Martin and Han An and Shaun doing all the diva high pitched madness

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was reading ppl's blogs anyway... as usual

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lol

EMIL DO YOUR WORK

STOP BEING SO MELANCHOLIC AND NOSTALGIC

AND WASTING TIME BLOGGING

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world lit overdue

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I think I'm going to be lit up and burnt alive by Mrs Maria Nathan tmr

(disclaimer: Mrs Nathan generally is a nice teacher)¹ 

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Argh

I really don't know how to do world lit

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at least IOP we had example/practice presentations to get a better feel of how to do it

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boo

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I hate doing a subject which I've not done for 2 years

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I need help

argh

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Edit:

1. Added as I didn't want a repeat of the NS incident

Costs

Somehow i just want to write about 2 things

1. The whole issue of relationships 

or BGR

2. The cost of love

 

Maybe i shouldn't harp on so much about number 1, but i guess, let me make my observations

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1. Boy meets girl (or girl meets boy in some cases)

usually very much the case, sometimes or another, it might be possible that, be it mutual or single directional ( Jesus-way as Tim once put it, aka "one way"), affections arise. I guess its nothing really wrong, when little emotions get invested, it does not tie so much, and eventually  nothing happens, unless number 2 happens

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2. Emotional investments

Theresa once shared this analogy, the idea of us having one pure bottle of mono-coloured sand. and she likened the emotional investments as pouring sand into another persons bottle.

The problem with so many people is this, they jump right in, start pouring sand into each others bottles, and realise they don't like each after all, and try to take back as much of their sand as possible. The problem of that is that once invested, you cannot take back totally, and it hurts, because you left a precious piece of oneself, in someone else's heart, you cannot take it back, the same way once you mix salt and sugar together, its kinda impossible to separate them. (whatever to the science geeks who decide melt the mixture and do some random crap about different melting points, that's beside the point).

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Ah well, i wish that "the special one" myth was true. Alas, truth be told, there absolutely no biblical basis to that. Its only by God's grace do we find "the right one" and not screw up  in that sense.

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it doesn't make sense to fall into the trap of number 2, so many times, i seen it all around, people rushing madly from one failed relationship to another...

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ah well wish I could... I don't want to hurt myself either

someday we'll find it... in His time

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and the cost of love, love is not cheap.

we cannot say we love something or someone unless it costs us something.

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Love cost God the life of His Son

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we say we love God, but we don't love God by singing songs, wearing christian T-shirts, attending christian events, what does it cost us?

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a life surrendered to God, 

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"love God wholeheartedly"

hope once again

Life is a road that I wanna keep going

Love is river that I wanna keep flowing

Life is a road now and forever

A wonderful journey

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A song, from a movie i used to love so well as a younger child

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I said life was driven by 2 things

hope

and passion

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yet Tim corrected me

life is driven by love, passion comes from love

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It doesn't matter if I love/like you in that way or not

-

I know God loves you, and loves you dearly, you are a beloved child of God

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Agape

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I know God knows what's best

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to rest in that peace and assurance

-

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I saw someone's msn pm:

"My sheep hear My voice"

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I still remember that, what significance I once thought it meant for me

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but no matter what, assurance to know God is always there to guide us

Brokenness

In so many things, even so...

-

i realise

-

life really isn't fun... its plain stressful, painful, and sometimes... meaningless

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I wrote how a christian life isn't the easiest life to live... yes it true... but...

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i guess...

-

in regard to stuff

-

I know , a lot of things don't work the way i would want them to work sometimes

-

I know, the ministry of worship through music. we can make the best music in the world, we can be the best "worship leaders" in the eyes of the people around us

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but we don't know how to worship God in spirit and in truth, the way He Desires it to be

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worship through spirit...

not the  soul, the emotions.

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worship in truth, no facades, nothing but honesty

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I don't know about tomorrow

I don't know about how different people get called into the places they are

when life, indeed is nothing but a whisper and breath, here this moment and gone the next

-

i dunno,

somethings hurt me more than they should

-

but is it wrong?

-

i know... i been through it before

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ah well

i remember asking the question in a previous post, encrypted in a hidden font :

"do you know? and if you know do you care?"

-

some how I don't think I want to know the answer for this case

-

and I don't need to anyway...

Alohomora

oh well

I should really keep my hands to myself

-

gray biscuit snapping off with a black/brown frozen chocolate bar

-

a lot to say, but is there really a point

-

oh well

-

another time to move on

-

and let God take care i guess

-

anyway

will join back with you guys soon i guess... maybe... i can salvage what's left of the shambles

and pick up those dusty sandals

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Tagalog

bus ride home

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171@ 5pm sunday

after lucky plaza

-

a mass of Filipinos crowd the bus

-

long streams of a language i don't understand

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"why your Bus so small"

lol

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anyway

A few things to thank God for

1) my iPod that got lost and found =)

2) my macbook pro conked up ( which was why i couldn't blog yesterday) but i got it fixed without any data lost

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oh well

-

I guess

-

He'll take care of everything

-

I know

-

He is God

-

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Oh well

-

I should keep my hands to myself

-

bleah

beyond emotions

love

-

a magical word isn't it?

-

millions of songs were written on the various aspects of human love

-

but God's Love? how bout that?

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many times, emotions seem to encapsulate the entire human experience

-

but there should be more than this, not just a matter of having a "touch from God" and get all emotional

-

real things... rather than the false fire we try to create for ourselves... real things invoke change

-

and God is real, very real

-

but so many of us confine Him to our emotions

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perhaps, while leaving choir aside for some time, I realised perhaps, yes, God had a greater intention for that, I still get to talk to people, in fact more often then usual...

-

and I don't feel so depressed

-

yeah...

-

I don't really know

-

but i guess, God might not make things really clear about some stuff

-

but I know He knows what best

-

so my friendships , my concerns, even about the issue about p.r. 2 and stuff, I know He'll take care

-

so needless to say I don't really know where I'll be in a few years down the road, i might lost touch with my current friends, I might have found other people

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but no matter what, I'll still have God,

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for all my friends

-

my prayer, hope, is that one day, when the race is complete and done, 

I'll be able to meet you all in God's presence

-

and I don't want to see you all fall away, or lose sight of God

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What drives peoples lives, as I shared before

-

hope and passion

-

many of us try to derive our hope from our friends and family, but we know perfectly well that all humans, naturally will fail us one day, only God is infallible

-

passion

it can be for anything... money, power, relationships, popularity, family

-

but naturally things can fall apart

-

we know God never fails

-

draw strength from Him , hope in the Lord

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and be passionate to see Him glorified

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ah well

hope you're feeling better

-

I guess

-

life doesn't revolve around our emotions and feelings... the experience of the soul

-

rather, the importance of spirit, truth, God

-

and maybe

its no one's fault in particular

-

ah well

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I guess

today

seeing so many upset people,... you aren't the only one

myself included

-

yet:

When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with you above the flood

Father You are King over the flood

I will be still and know You are God

-

Take comfort from that

Be still my soul

The wind and waves still know

That Christ who ruled them when he dwelled below

thereisnothingmygodcannotdo

if you really hate the world

hate me instead

-

don't hurt the people around me

-

poisonous nightshade

-

oh well

-

you've hurt me enough

-

and you're hurting other people around you too

-

why?

-

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you weren't invited for the dinner

by no fault of anyone

I wasn't either, I still came

remember the kids

remember them

remember khon kaen

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oh well

wish you could be nicer

wish you could simply love the people around you the way God would

-

Truth

In Your Truth

-

Verse 1

Lord  I come

seeking for You

seeking for Truth

that's found in You

-

Knowing that You are

The light to my soul

The hope of the world

The greatest of joys

-

Lord I come

searching for You

searching for peace

Only You give

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Chorus:

cause You're the only thing thats of worth

You're the only God who loves

Lord I lay my life to You

So lead my life in Your truth

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Verse 2

Lord I will offer

all of my life

though be it little

I'm giving to You

-

Knowing that You can

take my sins away

take my brokenness

and make me complete

-

Lord I surrender

the joy and the pain

at your Cross

Once again

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Bridge:

Cause You're all I want

You're all I need

You're everything

You're everything

-

Cause You are the truth

You are the light

To my soul

To my soul

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© 2008 Emil Ng 

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Matthew 13 :44-45

Philippians  3:7-9

John 14:6

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doubt i will have time to record it...

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ah well

thanks for the encouragement

the questions don't mean a thing

when i dont really know

and I dont want to know

-

yet i do not what i want to do

...

boo

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I wish i could forget

-

and move on

-

yet I don't know why

-

sigh

---

its strange

-

there are some that give more joy than pain

-

yet there are some which do the reverse

-

yet an altruistic nature or perhaps the complexities of human nature

-

you would want the latter more than the former. or maybe...

-

guard my heart, .... I don't want to hurt myself anymore. 

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worship

fireAC

-

calling and purpose

-

Truth; What is truth anyway?

-

oh well ):