The hardest part...

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The Hardest Part - Coldplay
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And the hardest apart
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part
And the strangest thing
Was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start
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I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining in the clouds
oh And I
I wish that I could work it out
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And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
And that was the hardest part
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I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
You're a silver lining the clouds
Oh, and I
Oh, and I
I wonder what its all about [x2]
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Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
Oh and thats the hardest part
Thats the hardest part
Yeah, thats the hardest part
Thats the hardest part

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I remember a convo I had a few months ago... complaining about ToK.. :
I used to be relatively on task
then sometime last year i stopped
was upset over some stuff... naturally didnt feel like doing my work
now its hard to get back on the right frame of mind
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oh mann.
well don't let those things hinder you okay?
press on!
=D

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Go study lah, I want you to study(Zhuo'er at leb's house)

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I don't feel like studying... maybe I should fail my exams and get retained...

at least i delay NS by one year...

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=(

I don't want to hurt myself more...

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someone else told me last year... that i shdn't hope for "some stuff" , knowing some stuff

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and I don't want to...

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even if lua still keeps jabbing me about it... although it helps a bit... 

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I don't want to hear the four letter F-word ... 

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=(

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unless other wise... I still don't know why...

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but I see things I don't want to see, hear things I don't want to hear...

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God... help me to trust You... help me to have faith even if it means more testing... help me to hope even if i get disappointed..

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and above all, help me to Love... even if love involves hurt... because... You first loved us...

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I just wanted to get this off my chest... but either way... i wont be posting much... twitter updates for memory sake... ...