Liberties

taking liberties with certain privileges ...
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i dunno why...
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but it seems that while people can take liberties in emoing and feeling sad about stuff
cookies and stuff
just because i asked a innocent question
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it was really not fair
it didn’t have to be that way... just because of protecting someone, hiding objects,
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i never had such privileges...
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“why?...”
“you’re stronger than him”
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I see things right before my very eyes...
but i don’t show reaction to that
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mention a taboo
boom...
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I realising a need to just go out, and scream and yell, run till the endorphins are released...
I don’t need punch my knuckles till they bleed
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I don’t know if you’re doing it intentionally...
but i find it impossible to do any subjects other than brainless ones (Bio/Geog) when you are around...
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double standards
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it doesn’t matter if rules are broken to achieve your purpose
but the moment i get into trouble... no one stands up for me
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it matters if i made someone upset by asking an innocent question
but it doesn’t matter if you yell certain names to my ear..., do stupid things, hear blatant references,
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its even shocking for me to joke about showing ladybirds and tissue paper
but its normal to see everything, every silly thing right in front of my face
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memorising/knowing the bible in one thing
having faith is another
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being able to logify, dissect and argue apologetics is one thing
trusting in God is another
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I expected it anyway
because i knew from the start what the answer was...
which was why i never bothered to invest too much into it...
that’s why i can just drop the form
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activity evaluation...
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I still remember what God told me... or what I thought God told me last year...
so I shall... wait and believe He’ll make everything well in the end...
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God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (Ps 46:1)
and He will make all things beautiful in His time(Ecc 3:11)...
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