East to West

admittedly though the nick name dueling has stopped... yet i guess... still the same rubbish... looking at specific ppl and their stuff, like XL months ago...
still remember:
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"now playing: Free - Delirious"
"now playing: Song of Freedom - Hillsong"
"now playing: Free - United"
over and over again
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"now playing: Everlasting God(New!) - Lincoln Brewster"
"now playing: Collide"
"now playing: East to West - Casting Crowns"
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Casting crowns... the altar and the door, koped the tracks off daniel chng (as i believe a lot of ppl have done)
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so East to West
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Here I am Lord,
And I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind,
Keeps me awake tonight
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I know you cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before you now as,
As though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way
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Jesus can you show me
Just how far the east is from the west
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest,
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other.
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I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
And time and time again your truth is drowned out
By the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away,
From you leaving me this way
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Jesus can you show me,
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
'cause you know
Just how far the East is form the West
From one scarred hand to the other.
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I know you've washed me white,
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through,
To get me through this night
Can’t live by what I feel
But by the Truth your work reveals,
I'm not holding on to you
But you're holding on to me,
You’re holding on to me
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Jesus you know
Just how far the East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been,
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
'cause you know just how far the East is form the West,
From one scarred hand to the other.
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Just how far
The east is from the west

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just how far the east is from the west?
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i guess the struggle, to Love God FIRST not other things or people for that matter... aand I guess not sin and dishonor God
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" if you love Me, you will obey My commandments"
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I dont want to go back as before, yet...
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I guess, too reliant on people to give me the happiness for the day

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God wants me to love Him and rely on Him first, and only he can give JOY , JOY that LASTS, not just momentary fleets of europhia
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I guess I'm not ready if I cant love God first, wholeheartedly... I guess, maybe...
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ok
today, admittedly was a really sucky day, I guess did the reverse of what i was doing before, taking nice long routes to avoid, but
i guess...it was really painful
but... i dunno
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still thank You Lord... , I guess even in the pain and sadness
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There is Joy.... Your Joy,
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I know I am loved by the King
and it makes my heart want to sing
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yet i guess, I won't do that again, there really isnt a point
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yet once ATP's been spent, you get ADP which lingers on
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yet I wish I could build a good friendship, to someone,... i guess,even if there are emotional aspects to it, but I guess, Love God first... until then...
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and I wish... but Lord guide my life , and lead me all the way
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and i know You love me more than i ever could love anyone else, and i want to love You back, with all my heart
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help me to Love the way You want Lord