安静

安静
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只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
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我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
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你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
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你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
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CHKROK, hmm looks like I didn't get in(no news so far hence i assume that)
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nmind... thought I'll post the song either way
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It seems hard... and is painful but... i always wonder, whatever I heard, whatever I seen, "revelation" as a way of knowing... (ToK presentation today, apparently that was a Way of knowing I should have mentioned.) , or was it merely emotion, just speculations from myself
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... nightmares of June, living in nightmares...
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and no longer the person i knew last year, I don't know you anymore...
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为什么还要我用微笑来带过?
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yet the annoying part, "don't give up, trust Me?"
or maybe that would just be emotions... somehow, Lord, I feel that its like trying to create false voices?
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"My sheep hear and know My voice.."
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maybe, my prayer, is that you'll love Him with all your heart,hate the things that God hates, and walk closely with Him, and never stray... and I'll know there'll be an eternity waiting there in the end... I mean what is 40-60 years of life compared to an eternity in heaven?
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and i did pray for you that night during the retreat...
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the 2 greatest commandments:
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Love the Lord wholeheartedly(paraphrased)
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Love your Neighbor as yourself
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Eve please... i wish you would cut it out... "poisonous toadstools don't change their spots"
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who is the one being poisonous?
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I mean even for Seb Yap, I'm trying to be nice to him, even after he got me into serious trouble last year...
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"If you love Me, you will keep my commandments"
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and I see another guy, wearing pink frames, looking really emo (at least i cover up with hyperness haha)
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it is not worth suicide... even if the heart gets broken into a million bits
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there is a God who loves, and He specialises at mending broken hearts =)
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I guess, smile more, there are other things worth living for ... especially God
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In the midst of the storm through the wind and the waves...
when the stars refuse to shine, and time is no more...
You still be faithful oh Lord
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am I a crazy eccentric nutter in the sight of others?
yet that isn't really me entirely... its just a facade, i may have my idiosyncrasies, but... I guess...

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you should realise by now what the colour codes mean
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hence a new label: Orange-purple (Wesley doesn't have to "tag: emo God heh heh" me again...)