Point of Escapism

now even that is gone...
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maybe i should be more mature about it
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not like it really matters, facebook is a darn waste of time anyway
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it seems
sighs
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no matter how hard you try
there’s really no point clinging on to FALSE HOPE right?
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I could do an alien
be as sticky and possessive as I can be, make people feel bad...
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and that’s not being loving, since, I quote:
when you love a person
sometimes you have to give him/her that space
sometimes in loving
you need to let go.
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or the thing that’s generated by a voltaic cell:
put weird pics on my imaginary iTouch,
Emo in one corner,
so people will bake cookies and try to cheer up
(and I never had that luxury...)
pretend to flirt with other people.
but still...
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but... can I BE A RATIONAL CREATURE for ONCE
just dump everything away,
isolate myself,
lock myself in a room
play all the meaningless computer games,
lose myself away in everything possible
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play a game of pretend and stick to another person even though its not true
(and i know that doesn’t work either..., and you might even end up SCREWING up YET another friendship...=(- )
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no need to suffer all these crap hurled at me...

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but then again... I cant :’(
I can only keep absorbing the hurt
and I even have to discount the rare nice moments,
I don’t want to be disappointed again... like the 27th dec,
even the nice can hurt me... sometimes...
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I KNOW DARN WELL THIS IS A PUBLIC BLOG
GO AHEAD AND LAUGH AT ME, I DONT CARE!!!!