Zion Road

I’ve known you since you were sec 1, as one of the first few i known then...
had been praying for you, talking to you, caring for you, being a friend...
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yet, since when did you have a right to comment about the way I manage my stuff?
especially since you have no idea what’s going on...
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Or for that matter... other stuff as well
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treating me like dirt
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sighs
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I feel rather... disappointed
and betrayed...
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like sometimes things aren’t fair
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when I’m being nice or trying to be nice
sometimes, people just don’t appreciate it
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and when I’m not that nice, that’s another story
instantly attack, and pick on me
emil is always the bad guy, everything is his fault...
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I’m sick of hearing “its okay” from someone
as if people thought i was some savage who would rip someone into shreds if left alone with that person
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at least you can get to spend some time alone with him,
who at least still genuinely cares for you, and will listen
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yet you emotionally blackmail him instead...
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do you have a conscience
after hurting all the people i care for...
and hurting me?
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do you have a right to be angry with me
for being practical?
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after all Tim technically was around, he wrote part of that song...
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and also with you deciding not to be free that day
after I had booked everything, after informing you LONG ago...
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I wish you would be less petty about it...

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sighs
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walking down that road again...
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only love can lead me on...
because love covers a multitude of sins
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and love cannot abide
when there is resentment
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learning how to love
when its not easy to do so...
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