Monday, 31 March 2008

Discern

chapel today
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discerning God's will
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seeking after Him
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thats what matters
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surrender
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thats what matters
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wholehearted offering of oneself,
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the essence of worship, 



In Your Freedom
Marty Sampson, Raymond Badham
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Verse 1:
I search for You God of strength
I bow to You In my brokenness
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Verse 2:
And no other king could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart
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PreChorus:
I have nothing more
Than all You offer me
There is nothing else
That's of worth to me
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Chorus:
And I love You Lord You rescued me
You are all that I want You're all I need
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Verse 3:
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You My cares released
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Bridge:
In Your freedom I will live, In Your freedom i will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion
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©2007 Hillsong Publishing

back to the start

The Scientist -  Coldplay
-
Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart 
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Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
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I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are
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Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start 
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icy...
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a question ....
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science of conditioning
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why?
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sighz

Sunday, 30 March 2008

Everything


ah well
-
memories
-
as kevin shared in church... the greatest love story of all
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and the skit I knew too well
-

Everything - Lifehouse
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Verse 1:
Find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel You
I need to hear You
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
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Verse 2
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...You're everything.
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Pre-Chorus
How can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?
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Verse 3
You calm the storms, and You give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, You won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and You take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
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Pre-chorus
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
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Chorus
Cause You're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
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You're all I want You're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want You're all I need, You're everything, everything.
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And how can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this? 
How can I stand here with You and not be moved by You?
Would You tell me how could it be any better than this?

maybe
-
I wouldn't know
-
emotion is part of the soul
-
He knows the pain, the joy we feel
-
would you know?
-
when life is but a whisper and a breath that comes and goes
-
and ever-changing
-

i always wonder
if i simply posted some random stuff
would people believe it immediately?
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after all it only took XL 2 days to realise something about me.
and wesley one
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Saturday, 29 March 2008

Bergerak ka-kanan bertiga-tiga

ah well
sighs
perhaps the retarded behavior is really not me
just a facade

drill
The girls stand together (zhuo er)
Emil go there(wesley)

... Jadikan tiga barisan, Chepat jalan
-
ah well
I dunno why...
-
Either way the marching was rather... sickening... so hot...
-
biking indeed... we never got to do such fun stuff for adventure...
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standbys and socks
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shucks
-
boo
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I don't like you... go away...
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><

Friday, 28 March 2008

EE-ToK

ah well
the 2 darn things,
that seem to be making me darn busy
and reaching home so late
too tired to do anything but sleep
are almost over and done with

ToK presentation - 10 minutes
interrogation(questions) - 13 minutes
-
lol
plus with mum calling my hp at really wrong intervals
-
boo
i should have done in a group
10 minutes is too short a time.

ah well
it seems
I've been spending more time with certain individuals
but not of others
-
Sigh
I not sure
maybe i was simply using you as a distraction away from the other one
-
and maybe...
ah well
we've been friends
good enough at any rate

and I realise I'm hardly talking to tim about stuff now a days,
strangely enough
I seem okay to most people
lol
confusing John Tay is fun though

Wednesday, 26 March 2008

the song...

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
broken hearts, broken lives,
He will take them all
the power of the Word
the power of His blood

Everything was done, so you would come...
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Picture taken from Khon Kaen
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somehow this song seems to be stuck in my head 
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hearing it over and over again
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church and school
ah well
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I remember, or I think i do
-
the first and last time i lead worship with evelyn for fireAC
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she chose that song
along with All for Love

ah well
sighz
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Tuesday, 25 March 2008

Nostalgia

....Grades may fail, even friendships rust

ah well
i miss being y5
-
i miss khon kaen
-
i miss so many things
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ah well
-
if i do fail IB, if all my friends left me, if all thats left was just me
-
all I have is You
-
and all I ever had of worth was You

someday we'll find it... in His time
-
only time will tell
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I'm tired of putting on a facade
-
I'm tired of pretending
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I'm tired of seeing chng looking emo, me trying to act silly to hide my emotions
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I'm tired of being a joke...
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I tired of being abused by evelyn
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and my mum wonders why I start playing comp games again?
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escapism
thats what it is...

Sunday, 23 March 2008

XLS

another Easter weekend
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Saturday:
Council
" and the second rule... ...
... ...but God will make a way"(lua)
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Lol
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Math Portfolio
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Petrina, Evelyn, Amanda, Leemin(noticed i was the only guy around...)
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and evelyn was a !@#$
-
oh well
-
sighz
-
what once would make me happier
-
simply plagues me with a sense of sianness
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XLS

today:
sleeping in 79
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church easter production
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glenn lim
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the song... "so you would come"
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ah well
-

shopping/stonning(while my mum,and Hannah's mum looked a cosmetics) around Vivo 
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bought a 500 GB server/ hard-drive from challenger
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why don't ppl sell express card slot card reader
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PCMCIA cards come with all laptops
yet my Macbook Pro has to use express cards(a newer standard)
-
along with DVI instead of VGA(although at least it comes with an adapter)
-
ah well
vivo seems to have become my second home
-
so much for belonging to a church next to it
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yeah
Easter marks my "spiritual birthday", the saturday I accepted Christ in Pri6 ,  all so long ago
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thank God for almost 6 years... of being so faithful
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Saturday, 22 March 2008

nOTblogCheckin

This post is dedicated to Mr Alistair Chew
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well the results of that little experiment, as well as not completing homework on time, being sent out of class by my English teacher the following lesson
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apparently teachers do check blogs, and frequently at that.
lets analyse the results(Google Analytics):

whoa... self explanatory
although I don't remember posting anything much about Grace Kwee other than one post
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And sorry my blog isn't Wen Yi's blog
oh yeah, i remember, Dr Ong told us NOT to post about Wen Yi, on request from his parents 
so has someone been checking that that is adhered to on the 20th, 25th feb and 2nd march?
or just some really kay po ppl?
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and I don't really remember posting about Grace Kwee
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and my blog actually shows up with some level of importance in Technorati1
lol
1. An ACS(Independent) IB World School teacher's favorite tool for blog checking, basically a blog search engine. The ACS(Independent) IB World School teacher basically enters his or her name unto the search field, select any authority and any language under language and click search. Like Google, it sorts sites based on importances, determined by the number of "trackbacks" or links. Hey wait a moment, most teachers just use google, and have fun filtering out the MOE, ACS(Independent) IB world school and other irrelevant sites lol.
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anyway
to emphasis the point I wanted to make in that post in a less audacious manner


ah well
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I wish I could
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but I cant
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its just superficial interactions i guess,
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and I know you'll trying to patch up with me, being friendly, talking to me again, I guess
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thanks
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Sighz
I knew I had to do that first
but it wasn't easy
and I know I cant change my mind now
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oh well
-

lets see if he really becomes nicer
after colliding against the AHP
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could we fit this unto a model, and formulate a conjecture?
lol
**** math port
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Thursday, 20 March 2008

AC

they fired a chem teacher
AC... a large part of ACS
-
ah well

REW...
-
one wonders
why?
sighz
-
right from the beginning
I knew
what it meant
what it was to be
-
MOE's secular policy
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I wonder
for the team from GMC doing DJW at MG
how it was for them
-
and whether things could make an impact
-

you know... lose my temper at my mum, being late to school(booked)
-
I told God:
"the only thing at would probably make me in a good mood is to see people saved"
-
yet i wonder
-
God uses imperfect us as his instruments
-
perfect God
when would You send revival, pour out Your spirit upon ACS

"Is Jesus the only way?"
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"yes"
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"do all non-christians go to hell?"
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"that I cannot say, not sure...  Romans 2:6-7"
"God "will give to each person according to what he has done." 
To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. "

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*you just contradicted yourself
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Romans 2:8 But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger.
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Romans 3:10-12
There is no one righteous, not even one;
there is no one who understands,
no one who seeks God. All have turned away,
they have together become worthless;
there is no one who does good,
not even one."
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based on a few premises
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1. God will only give eternal life to those who persist in doing good 
2. No one is righteous 
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based on these 2 premises, all will go to hell
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3. Jesus is the truth (you can choose to disagree, but Jesus taught with authority and truth, John 14)
4. Those who reject the truth will go to hell
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based on premise 3 and 4, all who reject Jesus(i.e. non-christians) will go to hell
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5. when we accept Jesus, He pays the price for us, and wipes our sin record clean
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Christians do not go to hell
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6. many who claim to be Christian do not have Christ
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not every person who claims to be a christian will not go to hell
-
based on all these premises
-
you can safely conclude

1) all who reject Christ go to hell
2) non-christians who has ever done evil(i.e. everyone) will go to hell
3) Some people who claim to be christians will go to hell
4) Christians don't go to hell
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one might question, if God is love how can He create hell. how can He hate?
-
You cannot love
unless you hate what can hurt your beloved
-
God gave a free choice(love is a choice, you cannot love unless you have a choice)
although He set the rules(sin = death)
-
we can choose righteousness or sin( temporal pleasure)
-
we can choose life or death
-

ah well
-
a beautiful song that was sung  on wednesday
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So You Would Come
Before the world began, you were on His mind
And every tear you cry is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
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Nothing you can do could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done could make Him close the door
Because of His great love, He gave His only Son
Everything was done so you would come
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Come to the Father, though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives, He will take them all
The power of the Word, the power of His blood
Everything was done so you would come

Monday, 17 March 2008

Removed on request

Censorship sucks

theme of
freedom

Saturday, 15 March 2008

boo

Youth fellowship
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An overtired me playing keys
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before the sharing by theresa
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on that old, familiar topic
r/s
boo
-
although it was something more insightful and new this time
-
we started with a song which sounded like crap, and the lyrics are worse

Between The Trees - Darlin'
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This call is meant to be brief
a simple hello ending with goodbye
Then you say hello
now, I am melting
and now my goodbye 
becomes a goodnight
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I don't mind if you don't mind
please say you do not mind if this call
goes on all night
cause I have more to say
my afternoon was O.K.
my evening was fine but this night
I want it to be the best night
of our lives
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Sweet Darling
this is my confession to 
the crimes of wanting you badly
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And Darlin' if you're wondering
here's your answer 
yes I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you
yet
These calls are getting longer
and these nights go on 
and on and on forever
I do believe I'm getting better
knowing you 
hopefully all of you
-
Sitting watching movies
we both know I do not watch a bit of it 
cause I am much to busy 
leaving my hand close enough
so you'll hold it
-
And I can not stop thinking about you
I can not stop wondering
if you're constantly
thinking about me
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And Darlin' if you're wondering
here's your answer 
yes I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you
yet
These calls are getting longer
and these nights go on 
and on and on forever
I do believe I'm getting better
knowing you 
hopefully all of you
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Don't close your eyes dear I'm still staring
I won't lie dear I'm still breathing
even though your beauty is breath taking
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And Darlin' if you're wondering
here's your answer 
yes I like you
I don't love you
I can't love you
yet
These calls are getting longer
and these nights go on 
and on and on forever
I do believe I'm getting better
knowing you 
hopefully all of you


ah well
-
importance of honoring peoples hearts
-
and guarding your own
-
oh well
-
is there a point?
-
sigh... I don't want to make any more mistakes
-
I don't want to hurt myself or other people
-
yet I dunno
-
*be normal*
thats all I want to do
-
bleah

The pressure is over then...

LAMP course
Pres man Apps
ah well
all over
-

you know
its hard to say...
whether if I could, I would?
but I cant, or can I?
-
choices
to make sure I choose the right way to manage things, manage my emotions, manage my work, manage my priorities
-

ah well
I thanked God for you; you were an encouragement to me this year in many ways
-
yet I dunno if you'll become a stumbling block for me, or maybe, I'll be one for you
-

ah well, I hope to build people up, not tear people down... I hoped I've encouraged you...
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Christian living, a call to surrender all to His will...
Not exactly the easiest thing to do, a Christian walk isn't easy, to be able to love God wholeheartedly, as someone once put it, and love Him so much that any other form of love to anyone seems like hate
-
unless you hate..... you cannot be my disciple
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yet
"a new commandment I give to you, to love one another"
-

oh well
my work is in shambles
boo
oh well

Saturday, 8 March 2008

MACBOOK PRO

YAY
haha
-
anyway, haha
1 more thing struck off my wish-list
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so much for persistent begging and bargaining with my mum
-
but I guess, we all need to persistently pray, and ask God to move, to send revival
-
and if my mum can give in after some time, and if God definitely answers prayer
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yeah, we just need to continue to seek Him
-

Friday, 7 March 2008

Nothing

CORDELIA 
    Nothing, my lord. 

KING LEAR 
    Nothing! 

CORDELIA 
    Nothing. 

KING LEAR 
    Nothing will come of nothing: speak again. 


sighz
yeah.... 
-
ex nihilo nihil fit
-
yet I know He holds the future
and I know He holds my hand
-
...
caritas patiens est
-
Agape is patient
-

eetok blues
oh well
nothing to submit
-
sighz
=(
why so...

Wednesday, 5 March 2008

Quantifying love

How does one quantify love?

KING LEAR 
    Which of you shall we say doth love us most? 
    That we our largest bounty may extend 
    Where nature doth with merit challenge. Goneril, 
    Our eldest-born, speak first. 

GONERIL 
    Sir, I love you more than words can wield the matter; 
    Dearer than eye-sight, space, and liberty; 
    Beyond what can be valued, rich or rare; 
    No less than life, with grace, health, beauty, honour; 
    As much as child e'er loved, or father found; 
    A love that makes breath poor, and speech unable; 
    Beyond all manner of so much I love you. 

CORDELIA 
    [Aside] What shall Cordelia do? 
    Love, and be silent. 

yet the irony is that Goneril takes away Lear's "life, grace, health, beauty, honour"

LEAR 
    Of all these bounds, even from this line to this, 
    With shadowy forests and with champains rich'd, 
    With plenteous rivers and wide-skirted meads, 
    We make thee lady: to thine and Albany's issue 
    Be this perpetual. What says our second daughter, 
    Our dearest Regan, wife to Cornwall? Speak. 

REGAN 
    Sir, I am made 
    Of the self-same metal that my sister is, 
    And prize me at her worth. In my true heart 
    I find she names my very deed of love; 
    Only she comes too short: that I profess 
    Myself an enemy to all other joys, 
    Which the most precious square of sense possesses; 
    And find I am alone felicitate
    In your dear highness' love. 

CORDELIA 
    [Aside] Then poor Cordelia! 
    And yet not so; since, I am sure, my love's 
    More richer than my tongue. 

1. derive joy from

yet perhaps, a allusion to Philipians 3:8
Philippians 3:8  Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 
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derive no other joy from anything else
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yet even that isnt really love yet

KING LEAR 
    To thee and thine hereditary ever 
    Remain this ample third of our fair kingdom; 
    No less in space, validity, and pleasure, 
    Than that conferr'd on Goneril. Now, our joy, 
    Although the last, not least; to whose young love 
    The vines of France and milk of Burgundy 
    Strive to be interess'd; what can you say to draw 
    A third more opulent than your sisters? Speak. 

CORDELIA 
    Nothing, my lord.

perhaps, love, cannot be expressed in words...
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love is in the silences
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and love need not be returned, as one sees from Cordelia still loving after she was disowned
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Ahh EA1
-
so much for that...
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"love God wholeheartedly"

Tuesday, 4 March 2008

to say the least

oh well
its weird... so much that I wonder...
-
while a nessecity to be disciplined and stay focused on the task at hand
-
I wonder whether the trend that happend to us last year for FireAC
will pass down to the Y5s
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Philippians 1:21 :  For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
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for many of us, it needed us to give up what that is precious to us, not nessesarily a bad thing, but precious
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Philippians 3:8  Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 
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yeah...i have.... but maybe...

Monday:
Life science symposium:
sitting with tim,
mdm chin came round
changed seat and let her sit next to tim
sit next to petrina instead
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"wah... 是不是跟情友一起坐,为什么不要跟敏德坐?"(mdm chin)
lol
Petrina looked a little disturbed, although she seemed quite stone eitherway
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while a Prof Jackie droned on and on about nano-bio tech stuff which half the audi didnt understand

Today(the 'proposal'):
evelyn being nasty as usual during Bio class
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the convo went something like this
me: "hiyah the best thing is no sex lah"(talking about teenage abortion)
(the class laughs)
Yong Lee Har: " you dont laugh, there are some girls that like the Emil type" (lol)
Evelyn: "like you'll ever have a girlfriend"(this get repeated quite a few times, rather spitefully)
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later on...
Evelyn: "like you'll ever have a girlfriend"
me: : "So Evelyn , you want to be my girlfriend then?" 
(Humungous laughter and a super embarrassed evelyn)
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haha
serves you right , esp since you'll did that out of pure spite, knowing perfectly well there is a person in the class whom I liked before... ,
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but it was also a sucide attack
Yong Lee Har: "maybe Emil has a crush on Evelyn"
*my turn to be embarrassed as the class starts laughing at me*
me: " yuck"
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eitherway
evelyn looked visibly disturbed
haha
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helped Mdm yong with stuff later and get thanked with a nice laser etched labybird wood carving from the lifescience symposium
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oh well
sighz
one shdnt think too much anyway...

Sunday, 2 March 2008

Sunshine and Rainclouds

A severe lack of sleep,  1 day before founders day, the sleepover
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its a rainy day, drizzling in the wee hours of the morning
a cloudy night...
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we find... evelyn, samantha(y5), cheryl(y5), in the room, with karlo and a few other y5 guys
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evelyn never is particularly nice...
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and amanda who comes really late, having to have dinner back home. joining the crazy nutters outside who were playing cards
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earlier that day
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stonning in the room, after a FireAC pitstop... 
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a pair of shoes, ah well.. John is there anything wrong if I ask? I mean, I guess... nothing really wrong. Except while I am allowed to secretly emo, I dont want anyone else to?
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not like I have any other motives or even a tinge of hope in that area...
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but I guess, whenever, maybe I'm a little sad about it, maybe, the same way tim is
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"sleep in formup position"
astroturf, i didnt go there
although I was sure the next day that I would have slept better there
what with:
1)UWC blasting music while having an allnight party (imagine the bass reverbations shaking the floor while they played 'girlfriend' , 'sexyback' and all the retarded dance beat songs)
2) Noah See running all around the room
3) a Mosquito being let loose in the room
4) Aircon which was too hot,before I turned it down, before another person got up to raise it again
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I think the girls at the lang room got it better, at least the UWC isnt so loud, you dont have a noah see, although you'll didnt have aircon
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QT before that..
somehow, God reminded me, that while somethings do make me sad, he has given me other people to encorage me, and stuff... rejoice in Him
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yet I shdnt be so dependent upon other people, what if God decides to take them away?

morning, rise and shine
rain...
________
and we size up, and form up , the rain stops
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Dan: "...adjust __ uniform instead..."
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bleah Tim, you poot, anyhow say stuff last time, now I got to put up with dan having fun with me.
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poo I want to make fun of you dan...

"over in the astroturf we have the NCC, NPCC(LAND AND SEA), the NCDCC, SCOUTS, SAINT JOHNS,BB and the STUDENT body braving the rain, lets give them a round of applause"
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so much for De Ja Vu, exactly the same thing happened last year.
Yi hang having fun taking pictures at my direction
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ah well, was a memorable experience anyway
"whos the timer, timer very good"(chua kock yong) ?
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and Raphael talking to me in church about stuff again
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haha we laugh together, riddiculus how the stuff he's been through is quite similar to me

Sunshine and laugther
Rainclouds and sorrow
Bitter and sweeter
Be life as we grow

Do things really matter
When raindrops patter
And dreams start to shatter
But life's hope's will never 

Bread and butter
Hearts to flutter
Love to fetter
But things will get better...