Love endures

1 Corinthians 12 :4-13(ESV)
⁴ Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant ⁵ or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ⁶ it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

⁸Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. ⁹ For we know in part and we prophesy in part, ¹⁰ but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. ¹¹ When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. ¹² For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.

¹³So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

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For those who might have bothered to scroll all the way to the bottom of the blog, you might have noticed the verse... 1 Cor 13:13

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Love is awesome, God's Love is so beautiful, and so amazing

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Love never ends(v8 of ESV), or Love never fails(NIV)

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I wish... I knew what love really is ... but Love is a mystery we still don't know

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Steadfast is God's Great Love

Verse 1
Mourning will turn to dancing
Sorrow will turn to Joy
Pain will give way to blessing

Because of Your Love
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Verse 2
Your Steadfast Love endures

Your mercies will never end
Great is Your Faithfulness
Oh Lord our God
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Chorus:
Steadfast is God’s Great Love
It never ends
We give You praise oh God

We lift our hands
To God who gives and takes
We still will praise.
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Verse 3
Darkness will break to light
The blind shall receive sight
The poor shall be made rich
Because of Your Love
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Verse 4
Blest be the name of the Lord
Through all the hurt and pain
Great is Your Faithfulness
Oh Lord our God
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Bridge
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercies they never come to an end
They are new every morning, new every morning

Great is Your faithfulness oh God,
Great is Your faithfulness

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© 2008 Songs4Him, Emil Ng

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Wrote this earlier in January , inspiration from many parts of the bible, notably: 

Lamentations 3:22-23

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To still believe, Our God is Faithful, even in the tough times, and the times of hurt and pain and sorrow

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to say the least its sad....

i scared of hurting myself more... ... sighz

Refractory period

£ٱɱعαɗe' is tirrreeeddd and growing fat!!! ✞♥☺☻Psalms 131
says (12:08 AM):
i cant imagine petrina being emo
lol.

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`petrina says (12:09 AM):

HAHA YOU NEVER KNOW
hm

this is actually quite a bad thing
that people can't imagine me being emo

cos then if i appear to be emo/sad
people will get scared
i think i shall try looking sadder

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LOL - i still cannot imagine Petrina Cheng being emo

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post Bio exam syndrome rages... with every single action/though some how associated with a biological action or fact... lol

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i need to switch mode though... stupid math/geog/chem P3 exams

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after bio exam... John and Tim still insisting on discussing the paper

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dotz... 

what's the point of talking about the paper when its over?

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anyway migrated over to another table where Eng Hao and Feli were sitting, and Eng Hao was trying to prove that Chinese B HL was a better subject to take than Chem HL to Feli,

Which I seriously still disagree... what can you do with Chinese B ???? its like taking Math studies HL or something... dotz

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eventually some other people i weren't too familiar with came along... got up and contemplated whether to eat

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Emil come eat my chicken drumstick pasta ... very nice(Le John's mum)

very ex leh (me)

Hiyah I give you free drink lah.... dont tell anybody

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as usual i got touted and manipulated to buy her food...

but at least I got a free drink lol

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but realised it was kinda weird to eat in the middle of a bunch of non-eating people... so went back to Tim and John

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you ran away

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whatever Tim... i don't want to hear any more bio lor...

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ran off to an empty classroom to play guitar with Tim, ended up being chased out(and scolded for not submitting my EE) by my EE teacher

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went up to the balcony to pray with John and tim

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the book with all the written impressions... still there... the first page written all the way to somewhere in the middle... but old impressions.... ah well i still could see what i wrote way back in march

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back home to sleep

Didn't have anyone to go with me to LoveMG (with everyone having exams),

sighz... I wanted to go but i guess there still is passionAC next week haha

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1 more week

sighz

before IOC and Chem IA come to haunt me

ah well...

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Lord, give me the strength to carry on...

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laughter and joy, tears and pain...

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Biology

Studying biology certainly is fun, especially with the teacher's/textbook's sense of humour

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We first come to Mdm Ruma and her wonderful slides(they are really good, but you can find some weird stuff in it)

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Chapter 2: Chemical Bonding:

Chapter 4:Global Warming( The Goldilocks Principal) - refer to this post

Chapter 4: Taxonomy

Acronyms (3 different versions)

Kingdom	Phylum	Class	Order	Family	Genus	Species	(Original)
King	Philip	Cooks	Only	For	Girl	Scouts	(Mdm Ruma's)
King	Philip	Came	Over	For	Good	Sex	(Mdm Yong's)

lol

Chapter 7: Respiration - Matrix

Chapter 13  Transport in Plants - Endodermis

Mdm Yong's Slides

Digestion

Eye

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ah well isnt Bio the most fun subject to study

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especially with Campbell and Reece:

"this allows you to pick up a fork, or something heavier , like your biology textbook

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and another illustration (southern blotting):

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bleah, my back aches from dragging the "heavy weight" around today

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suffering from a nervous system breakdown(from studying about voltage/ligand gated ion channels, synapse, myolinic sheaths, nodes of raviner, Action potential, neuro-transmittors)

You make All Things Beautiful

Verse 1
You make all things beautiful
You make all things new
You make all things beautiful
Your love surrounds all I know
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Verse 2
You make all things wonderful
Such love is too much for me
You make all things wonderful
You're there in every circumstance
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Chorus
It's a new creation
Its Your Beautiful love
Its new beginning
of Your work in my life
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And I know forever
You'll be by my side
Through the joy and the pain
Jesus You'll be my guide
I put my trust in You alone
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Verse 3
You make all things beautiful
Though I cannot see
You make all things beautiful
So take this broken life and make it new
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© 2008 Songs4Him, Emil Ng

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Psalms 139

2 Cor 5:17

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an extremely sub-standard recording, since i did it under two hours, and I don't have fancy condenser mikes or pop filters (sorry for the loud pops) 

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heck EA1... I'll just bull my way through or something

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and I still don't know how to use Logic pro to master the tracks properly yet, i dunno if its something to do with the "hyper editor" but nevermind

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devotions today by Mr William Lai was quite insightful... Psalms 131

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ah well

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see, and things unseen;

1) did I annoy anyone?

2) Or maybe I'm just being oversensitive.

3) or ... ...

The rhythmic dance of the enzymatic hormones

it seems that biology loves rhythmic actions

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lets see:

Digestive system:

peristalsis - rhythmic contractions of the walls of the digestive tract

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Circulatory system:

SA node - pacemaker of the heart, generates the sinus rhythm

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Reproductive System (NC - 16):

this one seems to love rhythmic actions even more...

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uterine tubes lined with cilia that beat in a rhythmic fashion to move the egg cell/blastocyst to the uterine walls

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vas deferens - rhythmic contractions to propel sperm

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Sperm - rhythmic beating of flagella

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human sexual response cycle  - the 3rd phase...  rhythmic contractions occur...

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Menstruation... rhythmic uterine contractions to shed the endometrium lining

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Child birth .... rhythmic uterine contractions to shed the child...

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and all the lovely hormones/enzymes love to dance to the rhythm of biology

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GnRH

FSH

LH

TDF

MIF

ABP

hCG

Oxytocin

Prolactin

Estrogen

Progeterone

Testosterone

(androgens)

Hyaluronidase

Acrosin

Melatonin

hCS

GH

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poo... human physio is crazy...

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and poo... it looks horribly like an endometrium lining thickness cycle graph:

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anyway a random convo i had with Jayne with regard to mugging biology :

(1:11 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	lol if you're still mugging go to sleep =p
(1:13 AM) Jc (::	DYING EMIL DYING
(1:13 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	bio? hiyah the best thing
(1:13 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	is sleep over it wake up and continue will retain more tt way
(1:14 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	best if you sleep still thinking about the studyed stuff
(1:14 AM) Jc (::	HAHAHA brainiac function?
(1:14 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	than you end up dreaming about it
(1:14 AM) Jc (::	but its prob true
(1:14 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	and you remeber a whole lot more
(1:14 AM) Jc (::	shit i dont wanna dream abt REPLICATION AND DNA
(1:14 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	lol
(1:15 AM) Jc (::	freak enzymes in my dream
(1:15 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	jayne doesnt want to dream about 1. shit(digestive system) 2. DNA
(1:15 AM) Jc (::	gonna look like frekaing pacman WTF HAHA
(1:15 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	pity me other than all that
(1:15 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	i got human physiology to study and the namings/ processes are SOOO MUCH more complicated
(1:16 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	esp nero bio and nerve and sex...
(1:16 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	i hate the topic on sex so many stupid enzymes/hormones to remember
(1:17 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	what prolactin oxyctin
(1:17 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	follicle stimulating hormones
(1:18 AM) £ٱɱعαɗe':	and i dont fancy dreaming about it... it'll be a nightmare...

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lol ...

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hmm after a short convo i had with zhuoer

still wondering... you seem to know so much about the Y6s little secrets...

yet to what extent do you know???

hmm..

ah well... midyears again

end of the holidays

start of mid years

start of second semester

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what does the new bring... i wonder

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eitherway

I composed a song over piano, and well... recorded it using logic, its not perfect, but i guess

something to listen to ... 

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Sweet Serenade 

© 2007 Emil Ng

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I wanted to...

but I guess, nmind...

He Laid aside His Majesty

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sac pianos...

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sighz... 

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a conversation with tim...

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you don't know how I feel sometimes... I feel I've let myself down... and either wasted 1 year of my life away, or I dunno

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I'm not being fair if I'm writing this to make you feel bad, it was never your fault anyway 

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but I hope the love of God will see you through, 

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and see me through, everything

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thank God for music, and how he made it to glorify His name

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...just cry at the end of the year, and move on...

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advice...

sighz

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so many things we dont understand why God made it happen in one way or another

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I never knew why God didn't just let me get through IP in sec 2, rather than having to undergo the ordeal of O levels

but I'm still here... while many have fallen away to the likes of PoD/ToK

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I still don't know why whatever happened in Feburary last year had to happen

and why I lost my friendship,  and what once was dear to me, and i didn't do as well as i had earlier targeted

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but maybe ... God showed me what love is like... how to love a brother though I had: "every reason to hate him", and other things as well

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so maybe... I don't know...  how God will work

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If My People...

Verse 1:
“If my people who are called by My Name”
Thus says the Lord of Heaven
“If they humble themselves and seek My face,
Then I will hear them from heaven.”
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Chorus:
So would You cleanse our hearts we pray
Forgive our sins and heal our land
Oh Lord please give us the strength
To live for You and make a stand
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Verse 2:
You have called us to make a stand
Against a world of darkness.
To bring light to a broken Land
And hear the cry of the fatherless
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Bridge:
For Jesus who paid the price
Dying on the cross to save our lives
Worthy is the Lamb who was slain
Worthy is the Lamb who reigns
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Chorus 2:
Oh Lord please give us the strength
Though we are poor and unworthy
Help us us glorify the Lamb
And share the salvation for the lost to be free.

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© 2008, Songs4Him, Emil Ng

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2 Chronicles 7:14

will record it sometime soon i think, maybe after the exams, or during

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appreciations... (=

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and the little things

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and the memories

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SMSes are meant only for the person they were sent to

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and hence, perhaps,  that's why i never liked smsing

esp maybe the more personal private things

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and I don't really want to know... I don't at all

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its just too much to think about...

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I just know someone is confused about something

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and I just wish... it would go away...

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with regard to interpersonal chemistry

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being similar to somebody doesn't necessarily mean that 2 are compatible

imagine 2 intolerant people living together...

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or Tim as often remarked that a certain  person is rather similar to me, but we cannot get along though... 

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or maybe, yeah... a lot of things

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it doesn't mean anything

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obviously similar interests do work out

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but not necessary for personality, background etc.

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or perhaps another theory is the idea of complimentary characteristics, that one's personality compliments the other

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Stupid jokes:

"I got so many choices" (Dan)

"yeah haha... Petrina, *more random girl names*," (Evelyn) 

-dan was fun to hide behind... but not so now...

lol

-ah well sighz

My heart will fly...

My Heart Will Fly - Mercyme

Verse:
Why this happened I cannot explain
Why write the script with such heartache and pain?
Could there not have been an easier way?
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Watching life through this glass so faded
I cannot see the bigger picture taking place
Oh to understand one day.
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Chorus:
My heart will fly
When I finally see You face to face.
And my tears will fly
Away, away.
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Verse 2:
It won't be long until we all go home,
With all things revealed and on that day we'll finally know,
Oh, as we are fully known.
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Chorus:
My heart will fly
When I finally see You face to face.
And my tears will fly
Away, away.
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Bridge:
And what appears as incomplete
Is still completely Yours
And one day we'll see as we've been seen
And we'll soar.
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Chorus:
My heart will fly
When I finally see You face to face.
And my tears will fly
Away, away.
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love this song, when I first heard it...

ah well...

when will I finally understand... and know...

way truth light

John 14:1

Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me

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Ignorance is bliss

-an ignore response can be misinterpreted

To trust in Him, that He will take care of everything

-ah well it doesn't matter...

and He will make a way in every circumstance

-maybe...just maybe...

we stumble and fall many times, a Christian life isn't the easiest walk to take

-haiz, let it be...

but He's always there to pick us up...

questions

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Link

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I shall not bother to do a proper mirroring of this blog on the WP site... its too tedious

by faith I will walk on Lord

Abraham was called a friend of God
and a man of faith
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and faith is what pleases God(heb 11)
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ah well... bs tmr , let me conduct it with faith in Him
-I like that song... it meant so much to me before, and still does...

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and ubuntu is working, albeit rather slowly ( 400MB of ram, but 2.4 Ghz Pentium 4?)
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and skinning it up to look nice
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the power and stability of the unix system , like mac os x, but without the intuitiveness , and user friendliness/compatibilty it offers
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I need to buy:
1GB RAM memory stick(or two 2GB sticks for uber fast(but useless) 4 GB memory?, unless i intend to run VMware WS/player on linux...)
dedicated Graphics card (any cheapskate Nvidia with hardware acceleration will do)
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optional:
USB ports PCI card (the ports on my sis comp are half busted)
Gigabit Ethernet port PCI card( the 100MBps port is kinda slow)
Wireless PCI card(not essential, since I already have a direct wired connection, but it would be fun to mess around with Linux's packet sniffer tools)
Firewire/DV/iLink PCI card
a pretty desktop mouse (using alaptop mouse now O.o)
a Keyboard not suffering from the brown keys syndrome
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this post was written and published under Firefox 3.0b on Ubuntu Linux 8.04 (The Hardy Heron)

Ubuntu

after spending 6 hours assembling my 2nd sisters old comp from random bits and getting the Ubuntu live cd dist

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it still DOESNT work

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boo

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kernel panics

and corrupted cds

I've wasted 2 of my lightscribe CDs

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apparently 1 missing file can kill the whole install process

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going to try the alt installer (Command Line Interface based)

hopefully it wont give me problems

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anyway i dont really feel like blogging so much of such stuff... lest i bore the not so tech savvy people reading my blog into bits...

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"Ubuntu is freaking good"(nick seow)

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'nuff said,  test driving it over VMware certainly bought me over

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but the install process certainly is a headache

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hopefully it'll be worth it after that, so i can finally set up my download/torrent-ting/server function desktop(a laptop doesn't do well if i do over night DL)

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maybe I'll try OSX86(hackintosh) if Ubuntu refuses to work

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but that's another stupid  2 night DL

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oh well

days

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today

went to school a later than usual, and saw Felicia, apparently analysing music EE samples

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and after that Emil actually sits down, takes out his math to do

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lol

thats a first... normally i take a nap or surf the net for the morning and only start doing serious work in the afternoon

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then Nick Seow came along, and any work which i might have done was... not done, talking too much about stuff

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"diastole(relaxed), systole(contract)"

"the sino-atrial node is innervated by the sympathetic and parasympathetic  nervous system"

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I need to start on human physiology soon... the one without Mdm Ruma's wonder slides

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Tim's place

back to school to pass Pet Liam something

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and math... math... math... throughout

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MI (Mathematical Induction) can die.... i don't about what Pk+1 is true=>Pk+2 is true.....

so can Poisson distributions and all the stats

and Implicit Dy/dx

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shall i compare thee to a summer's day?

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shall i shake a spear at shakespear for coming out with EA1 texts to study? esp IOC that is coming up? 

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or...

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ah sigh... why?

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I wont say anything more... there are more private places to log my thoughts after all

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the rantdom rants of a tired confused emil

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poo

Love, and be silent.

CORDELIA :
[Aside] What shall Cordelia do?
Love, and be silent.

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Alto party, or reunion... haha

was rather small attendance... but at least i managed to meet up with the seniors (y7s)

and the ONLY person from the IB choir side who turned up was...

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Evelyn

...

imagine me sitting opposite her with no one other than Jeremiah Hadi the sec 1

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when Joel yap went off to get stuff at the harti cafe

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luckily Xuanqi joined us soon enough, followed by Sze Min, Ethel and Theo

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lol none of them have changed much...

Ethel is still as fierce and 'boyish' as ever

Theo is still Theo 

lol

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Highlights: Taboo

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"the nut closes to your heart"

"nipple?"

(apparently it was chestnut... doh...)

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*some weird reference to the male anatomy*

(apparently it was Dick Lee)

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and Douglas was funny as usual

"transmitted by mosquitos"

"SARS"(correct)

(since when was SARS transmitted by mozzies?")

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Highlights: TnD

the alien invasion questions... lol

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"if aliens invaded the earth and eradicated everything and you were stuck with only one person, who would you prefer.

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"E.T.(the alien) or Ms ranjee"(Sze)

"E.T.?"(Eve)

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LOL... apparently she connected 'ET' to refer to her... 

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the problem is when i started referring to her as et in my blog... lol

> <

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"must be a girl(member of opposite sex) from choir"(sze)

"I thought this question had procreation in mind"(eve)

(errrrr...)

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"Emil what did you say the last time?(2006 alto Halloween party)"(Sze)

"erm ... i think xuan if i rmb correctly"

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I didn't have to give any 'newer answer' anyway... 

but did it made me think for a bit

I don't really know many of the girls in choir at the moment, even for the Y6s, i don't exactly talk to them

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maybe...

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nmind... focus lah... don't get yourself into trouble

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dotz

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"Love, and be silent."

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maybe its the best...

even if "nothing will come of nothing" ...

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appearing offline isn't fun...

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ah well

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tiredddddd...

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sick of studying.... sick of thinking ... sick of everything

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booooo, 

I think I'm going to die if I'm found out...

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God be my everything to cling to... 

"You have searched me and known me"(Ps 139)

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my QT is dying... why am i so tired...

why?

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what there for me

drowning in materialism, tech gadgets, work, friends

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but only God can fill that void

but I need to find You first

Leopard Vista Ubuntu

Mac OS X Leopard

Windows Vista Home Premium

Ubuntu Linux

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running simultaneously without a hitch with VMware fusion

used spaces to split up the workspaces

(i super-imposed a screenshot of the mac OS X environment to make it look nice... in reality, you don't see the mac desktop in spaces, only applications)

(and in my vista install, I moved the task bar to the top, and i installed Stardock Objectdock, and put the default leopard BG as wallpaper)

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Allocated RAM/HD

Mac OS X - 1.5 GB ram -Native HD - host environment

Windows -2GB ram - Native HD(Bootcamp)- virtual environment

Ubuntu - 500MB ram - Virtual Drive -virtual environment

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mac OS X is running fine

Ubuntu runs very quickly

but Vista still is rather slow(irony, considered i allocated the most ram to it)

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haha

the power of the 4GB ram Macbook Pro with VMware Fusion*

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*note while it is possible to do the same in windows and linux using VMware player/workstation, you can never get the same stability(for windows) or UI pleasing eye-candy/user-friendliness(for linux) as Mac OS X

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and indeed i see why people Favor Linux over Windows

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so much more stable and fast(considering i ran it under the BARE minimal ram )

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but its a bit of nightmare trying to figure out how things work...  one needs to understand the UNIX terminal and the lot...

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and all the applications for Linux is open source... while there are a large number of them... one still cant exactly use the old software one is used to(at least Mac has a lot of port overs from windows)

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haha

if i ever get a non-apple machine in the future

I'll consider ubuntu over Vista or Windows 7 (the next fiasco MS is likely to commit, nice doing away with the mouse in favour of touch screens) 

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will post on the choir "alto reunion" when i feel like it... haha

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Alto of 05-06

Those were fun times =)

Creative advertisement at the apple site?

surfing around I saw this:

notice the advertisement?

Why the heck is apple advertising for the Creative Zen at their Website on iPods???

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apparently was because i was surfing at GWC using Wireless@SG from Qmax

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I believe IDA paid Qmax to provide  "free wireless" 

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doing this kind of unscrupulous thing isn't correct, esp when it drastically affects the browsing experience.

I couldn't see the last 2 cm or so of the webpage because the sickening ad blocked it

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besides retarded things like the above...

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someone should file a report to IDA or CASE

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poo

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and I'm not the only one apparently:

the other side

a few things to note i guess

and realise

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a geog IA submitted...

and its really early... library not open

so decided to wander around a bit

spied Ms Lydia Yap having some sort of chem lesson...

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went to the library, thinking of borrowing Planet Geog to study... didnt feel like studying in the library alone

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and ran into pigear Zhuo'er and John Tay =p 

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miss lost history notes girl (it 'wasnt supposed to happen', so i wont say ur name =p)

ran in after Chem

flustered about some weird sms

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lol

ah well

SMS and MSN is bad

it makes those people who wouldn't otherwise say things be able to communicate it

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after all

it only needs 1 second of courage

to push a 'send' button

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reminds me of a situation i was in - in the other side,  way back in December

walking alone  along Scotts Road late at night...

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hmm

anyway

an instant disappointment msg

is better than John Tay's 'ignore it' 

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imagine the thought processes:

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Ignore:

1. wait wait wait

2. does she???

3. ignoring is interpreted as indecisiveness - gives false hope, since the human mind can get so horribly deluded by emotions

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compared to

1. " but i don't like you in that way, you know what i mean... sorry ><"

2. emo a bit... move on

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"point ten?"(JC)

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old story... the past is gone anyway

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i made stupid mistakes too... oh well

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looking around Zhuo'er's music

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yay MORE ENYA =)

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noticing a certain track....

listening to it

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things seem so different from the other side

and i realise what so many things mean

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ah well

"oh its a reference to Greg Low's statement'

"so who?"

"scrutinise every single post on my blog and you might be able to guess"

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lol

maybe you'll guess... i dunno, maybe some part of me wants to make it obvious

and again

maybe not...

haha

typical human behaviour...

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tell me if you'd guessed...

Alabaster Jar

the sum of my desires

and the fullness of my joy...

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lala land, the land where everything is sunny and bright

urnt 

it be better than emo land...

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Gregory Low: "there's bound to be Chemistry"

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me thinks:

"I hate chemistry, it always so full of uncertainty" 

lol ±

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blue blue blue blue moon...

deep deep dah...

blue blue blue blue moon...

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exactly 1 year ago....

I was sitting down at that same spot

at the sec 1 corridor

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asking God for direction

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He said "up to you"

but I didn't know what choice to make

so things just went on...

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but at any rate

... i dunno how to make  choices

so You take control Lord

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its been a long year... I've learnt so much, I've seen so much

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but there is so much more to see...

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ah well choir V day song:

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Blue Moon
You saw me standing alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
Blue Moon
You know just what I was there for
You heard me saying a prayer for
Someone I really could care for
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And then there suddenly appeared before me
The only one my arms will hold
I heard somebody whisper please adore me
And when I looked to the Moon it turned to gold
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Blue Moon
Now I'm no longer alone
Without a dream in my heart
Without a love of my own
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but after all as John puts it

"there are so much more important things"

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For which i partially agree... while these things cannot replace the importance of seeking God

but that doesn't mean mugging extra Bio is more important =p  

(I emphasis extra =P, studying unfortunately has its importance)

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relationships(any kind for that matter) do matter also... we cannot live life alone =)

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but the most important relationship is God...

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Here I am

Take me

As an offering

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Here I am

Giving

Every heart beat

For your glory

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Take me

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well I got my wish... I did go for LDC even if its just a tiny bit

and even if Mr J. Ng wasn't around 

=)

P.G.

its become ever so prevalent

ever so subtly sneaking up on us

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the God who is suppose to aid your finances

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to give you "Your best life now"

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haiz

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references of gold teeth miracles

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and even 'you might have had a bad week but next week is going to be great'

(sounds remarkably like one of the american preachers i heard on youtube)

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I'm not condemning anyone... but didn't God make it clear, so clear

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that we are nothing, but He is everything

and the end of all things

is not how well our lives go

but how He is glorified

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and even if He chose to throw us to the depths of hell

he still has a right to... and be glorified

we are so unworthy... but he chose us

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why do we distort His word? 

and cheapen it so much

to promote Jesus as some wonder pill... pop it and He'll give you a great life

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but its more than that

abundant life... abundance because we live in the light... abundance because He is glorified in Our lives,

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we argue how Harry Potter is witchcraft and how Catholics are heretical

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but we fail to see the true evil, true heresy... that is so subtle and within the whole Protestant movement itself, whether evangelical or Pentecostal

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that all you need to pop this wonder pill called Jesus by saying some prayer

and He'll give you everything you ask for, whether you need it or not, like some wonder Santa Claus

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the end of all things is the Glory of God... that he is glorified... in our successes, in our failures, in everything

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Prosperity Gospel... why?