Where the Love lasts forever

Your mercy found me

upon the broken road

and lifted me beyond my failing

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when all else fades my soul will dance with You

where the Love lasts forever....

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and forever I will sing... how You gave Your life for me...

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an orange/yellow duck toy...

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and the long walk from 105 Ganges Avenue to Scotts road...

I know... we both knew each others side of the issue...

but I wish... I could've talked face to face about it...

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but thanks, for being such a great sport. For being such a great friend... and for being who you are...

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And now, free to do the will of God... ... I know... ... maybe thats why He wanted me to do this

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And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.(Romans 5:5)

Sharing Blessing Giving

SGB - sharity gift box

potential presidents man duty 

heh

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I sort of signed up for that shift... after i realised 

1) i had time

2) heh... other reasons

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oh well

its been a tiring weekend for me, with SGB from 8-10( zzz ppm duty is longer)

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but i guess, its been fun as well as tiring///

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warehouse packing and sorting, a good way to interact with boys form other companies, as well as the other primers.

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delivery to a benficiories house... with a other boy... as we were walking back to HQ from Jalan kukok, a good oppotunity to share the gospel... hopefully, one day as the seed is planted, it will bear fruit

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and hotline maintainence, "good morning/afternoon/evening/riddance Boys' Brigade"

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along with making fun of Lee Min, chatting with Tessa, haha

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and the ops team, half crazy over girls, I dont see how on earth they can get so easily interested with the TJC girls or Lee Min

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heh... and lol, talking about Tessa, and haha, sorry guys, not for sale... haha

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nutters sia...  but they generally are a nice bunch, maybe a bit pai kia, but nice I guess... haha

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i guess, 22, running around like siao at the first part thanks to miscomm... pff

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haha

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and sunday, another long day... church, cycling at downtown east with Hannah, Karen, Jasmine and family

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but I dunno, while I was playing the fool with the bike, and being swored at by Hannah,

sighz, i wish you wouldnt use such words... it isnt nice

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then captians talk... , haha, quite a few people didnt turn up pff... and amanda popping by after flying back from Europe, straight from the airport, lol

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and I somehow couldnt conenct during the singspiration that day, oh well, wasted... 

maybe I should have just stuck with guitar, even though I'm better at piano, maybe it was distracting, or maybe i was being distracted myself

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heh... i wonder why, looking at things, but i guess, not important for now, not a good idea to read into stuff

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but I guess, I'm glad, 3 ppl, 3 friendships recounciled, all thanks to God

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LAN at paradiz from 1030-12

missed the last bus, mum fetches

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back home, MSN chats, and my mum yelling for me to go eat... pff

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oh well

ended up sleeping close to 4 after chating for nearly 3 hours

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haha

oh well

Pooh Huney

Back from the MAD KKdec07 trip a few thoughts..

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heh, refer to tim's pooh and christopher post way back

http://limmdt.wordpress.com/2007/07/16/sequel/

as I broke the thought fast that night before we were going for RnR, our work in khon kaen done,  and John Tay half asleep in the room ( probally wasnt really listening haha)

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I guess I realised... God is so much more, so much more satisfying, the thoughts of Him are beautiful in a sense

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and I guess the other thoughts, they aren't bad per se, God gives us emotions , and God's gift is beautiful eitherway...

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I guess I've learnt quite a bit in the trip... besides drawing closer to other people in friendship, John, Eve, Fab, Petrina, Joshua, Gareth... and more

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and the ongoing theme of surrender, surrendering the past, the future, and the present in His hands

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while I know a lot of well meaning people have been telling me to surrender, to "give up" on a particular issue... while I know that everything is in God's hands... and I trust in that.... the thing I had to surrender on that issue .... is not the issue... but my fear... 

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why should I fear? If God is for me who can be against me? Trust the Lord with all Your heart...

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beautiful savior... wonderful King

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heh.... stuck in 2 flights in one day is disgusting... especially when both are budget air...

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haha... i wonder how Tim and Tessa are doing in Japan, and Amanda in France..

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and Evelyn in the airport waiting for 7 am to board the plane to India

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all the best to you all I guess haha... enjoy yourselves

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and torrential work awaits me... gg... sighz

Let the words remain unsaid

"guard Your heart for it is the wellspring of life"

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I guess... the thought fast... is getting harder... a few days was fine... but 

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and maybe... the tendency to "find a substitute"... a mind starved of thought...

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so much for "nicorette"

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sighz... I wish... my heart could be drawn to You alone... not anything else...

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I will not post much... thought fast shall not be flaunted until at least the R&R day

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But a rift... a certain officer is starting to annoy me a lot ( and vice versa)

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why... I wish...

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perhaps the way I work is different from other people... 

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some things are going well

yet I dunno something still troubles me alot... and i dunno what it is

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or perhaps the restraining is painful... 

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Blessed be Your name 

In the road marked with suffering

Though there is pain in the offering

Blessed be Your name

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

And ... I cried... as finally... something that was troubling me for so long... and... finally... recouncilation...

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Perhaps... thats was what You wanted to show me Lord... ... Thank You...

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Prayer walk.... around KK.... it seems, a lot of spiritual strongholds....

while I went as a prayer warrior as a small group of us around the city... dead brown moths littering a shrine... birds refusing to land on any of the sturctures in the vincinity...  more...

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Lord... cleanse this Land... and make it holy, consecrated, for Your glory

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and to a evangelistic concert... fervant prayer with Mr Wesley Cheong...  the small group of us.... memories of MAD June 06 come to mind... 

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and we see God's power... and healing... and Thais coming to receive Christ

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and Pastor Ariel for philipines... sharing his own testimony.... 

"Dont worry about anything... just obey God"

(my thought fast... begins to waver unfortunately... better not think at all... pfff)

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as we returned... and Fab with Eve... thanks both of you... esp Eve...

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I pray... that... as another friendship is rebuilt... Lord.. you help us...

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and I while.... need to be careful not to da chao jing se...

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All thanks to God..

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Seek Him while He may found

Yet again… while posting from Thailand… KK, (the hotel has wireless, yay… but  its super laggy)
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Since Fab can’t do his imba recollection of a days activities on his blog ( my laptop haha) I shall do a quick break down…

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DAY 1:
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Airport at Budget Terminal, Ate the most horrible chicken pie I ever ate in my life…
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(1^st hitch up)
Lee Min Air E-ticket dates…. 7/8
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In a sense the team was kinda of worried… how on earth … the flight is fully booked…..
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… Christine…. who was there to send us off… who pulled out… amazing intervention by God… Lee Min takes Christine ticket
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(2^nd Hitch up)
The bus was too small to take all our luggage… kinda freaky… luckily we managed to get a van of sort to transport the stuff
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(3^rd hitch up)
An extra Long bus journey (sleep rocks)… and …. Steam erupts from our bus as we alight…. It just broke down…
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One is bought to a realisation of the faithfulness of God… and His providence
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lol
Ah Jarn Song Sri still remembers me lol
a rather more subdued… welcome dinner… somehow… KKCS wasn’t what it was 1.5 years ago
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to the first timers… Thai hospitality was fantastic… to others like Garreth thought it was less than usual…
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perhaps, there more that meets the eye…
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perhaps, I wasn’t focused… enough… not that I was thinking of the usual stuff…
I sort of resolved not to(or avoid doing so) during the trip…. A sort of “thought fast” if you get what I mean, I’m not fasting of food…
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prayer meeting… Garreth… sorting out other stuff… meeting with Charles
“somehow… there is some things among us that needs to be surrendered to God”(‘neth)
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DAY 2:
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church visitations… I went over to some Nam **** church( I dunno some weird thai… I know the first word means water)
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the pastor was friendly and stuff… the worship was good (the church seems to have a more charismatic Pentecostal background)
interesting message about holiness and God’s perfection by an Ang Moh missionary…
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and networking after that… hmm interesting…
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HIV Orphanage visit…
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the kids were really happy in a sense when they played with us… and stuff… memories of Phuket WOW with my classmates resurface as we played catching and all manner of wild games with them…. Child-like faith… as Petrina put it during group debrief later… somehow… we were blessed by them more than we blessed them
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and dinner later … some steamboat/teppanyaki stuff…  lol in groups… we had 2 tables for our group…. My table however was a bit… imba…
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We had
Mr Wesley Cheong( still okay)
John Tay ( omg… the monster eater)
Petrina  (the biggest eater among the girl primers)
me(heh… I have a pretty good appetite)
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Hmm we ended up way faster than the other table.... lol... when Mr Ng ordered extra beef we koped most of it... later we ended up koping vegs fromt the other table too
and this is what we get lol:

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haha

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But on a more sober mode

Seek the LORD while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. (Isaiah 55:6)

I need to get my focus right... and Lord... open my eyes to see You... I want to see You glorified above all...

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help us to seek you with all our heart...

and internet starts failing me at this point... boo hoo

Oceans will Part

...When I'm blind to my way.

There Your spirit will pray

...As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

In my life Your will be done

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Cause all I need is You.... all I need is You Lord , is You Lord

I need peace and rest from this....

and my heart will find rest

I'll delight in Your ways....

as You open my eyes to the work of Your hand...

 

yet perhaps, running away from the battle... is not the best solution... stand firm and fight

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i guess... have fun and enjoy yourself

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I guess... for me... 

Seek the LORD while He may be found; call on him while He is near.(Issiah 55:6)

Inside out

Its not about outwardly shows of faith....

Its about a heart consecrated to God

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Its not about how successful ones ministry is in terms of numbers...

Its about how closely one's ministry does God's will

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Its not about oneself getting rich and prosperous

its about God being glorified....

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its not about how much prepartion we do

its about the amount of prayer we do

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Its not about how mersmerising a persons face can be...outward beauty

its about the charector and personality of the person... inner beauty

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its not about how much you can gain from loving a person

its about how much you can give to the person

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its not about the physical intimacy in a relationship

its about communication, emotional and spiritual support...  

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its not about us

its about Jesus

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and do help us always keep that in mind... even as we go forth unto the mission field... for the team...

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and i really dunno... why bother with the second segment of this post... like it matters for me anyway... or does it?

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SGB on friday... it was a weird day.... saluting a prime minister as he walked pass without anknowledgement... being secuity guards in a security guard-like uniform... watching from a distance... 2 small malay kids holding hands with a primer... a mdm hamimah... news of a brain hamoragic stroke of an SGB benificory

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and painfully... a cold attitude... sighz... why do i always end up making people annoyed?

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and recording with a small group of tim wes and dan until past midnight...

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and intentionally trying to make a worship leader feel bad... for swapping me out rather last minute... in exchange for a "friend from Hillsongs"  

apparently a hillsongs person definately plays better than a church keyboardist... which evidently wasnt true... 

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and more... to wonder...  and wish....

and dreams... not nightmares... but... dreams again...

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I wish I could just stay focused.... granted... a period of time away from msn and other distractions.... I hope.... that with that... I could properly seek God... and discern His will...

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and EE ToK with 0% progress with backlog homework from last term... professional procrastination...

sighz.... 

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Your will above all else

my purpose remains... ... ...