Inside out

Its not about outwardly shows of faith....

Its about a heart consecrated to God

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Its not about how successful ones ministry is in terms of numbers...

Its about how closely one's ministry does God's will

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Its not about oneself getting rich and prosperous

its about God being glorified....

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its not about how much prepartion we do

its about the amount of prayer we do

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Its not about how mersmerising a persons face can be...outward beauty

its about the charector and personality of the person... inner beauty

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its not about how much you can gain from loving a person

its about how much you can give to the person

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its not about the physical intimacy in a relationship

its about communication, emotional and spiritual support...  

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its not about us

its about Jesus

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and do help us always keep that in mind... even as we go forth unto the mission field... for the team...

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and i really dunno... why bother with the second segment of this post... like it matters for me anyway... or does it?

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SGB on friday... it was a weird day.... saluting a prime minister as he walked pass without anknowledgement... being secuity guards in a security guard-like uniform... watching from a distance... 2 small malay kids holding hands with a primer... a mdm hamimah... news of a brain hamoragic stroke of an SGB benificory

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and painfully... a cold attitude... sighz... why do i always end up making people annoyed?

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and recording with a small group of tim wes and dan until past midnight...

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and intentionally trying to make a worship leader feel bad... for swapping me out rather last minute... in exchange for a "friend from Hillsongs"  

apparently a hillsongs person definately plays better than a church keyboardist... which evidently wasnt true... 

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and more... to wonder...  and wish....

and dreams... not nightmares... but... dreams again...

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I wish I could just stay focused.... granted... a period of time away from msn and other distractions.... I hope.... that with that... I could properly seek God... and discern His will...

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and EE ToK with 0% progress with backlog homework from last term... professional procrastination...

sighz.... 

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Your will above all else

my purpose remains... ... ...