Hydraulic Rooms

idle conversations
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an attempt in assimilating me into everything
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“Emil is not interested in girls”
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“are you gay?”
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“I’m not gay, I’m just not obsessed, I don’t think its right...”
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“are you a guy or what?”
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and HQ had to speak...
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“he never ... anyway”
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while HHHu asked about it
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with my defiant answers that HQ was making rubbish claims
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which were true
just not in the way they thought it meant
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all these interrogations
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in the midst of more other stuff...
when you keep insisting of pushing a point which may not be true to begin with
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I find that it becomes harder to firmly decide that its not true
after all there really isn’t anything hard about making it true
just my choice NOT to...
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heh, and you really have double standards anyway
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I just wish I could talk to Tim... =(
talking with other close friends just isn’t the same =/
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