A tiring truth

I only have one week to complete all my EIS stuff
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and the long tiring hours at OETI isn’t helping
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tiring because of having to wake up early just to idle there... OETI is really too slack...
shorter hours would suffice...
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the other thing
is that somehow I cannot help comparing 2 people
even my mum does that too...
concluding this and that
that if you did measure all the standards
you’ll realise one is definitely better...
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but realising everything doesn’t really matter
after you realise everyone is, after all, going to move on later this year
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and yeah... I whine too much...
seems like I haven’t learnt much from last year, I was doing the same too,
except I’m being more realistic and hence
“not putting myself in a position of hurt”
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everyone tells me to move on
I dunno, because somehow I don’t know
whether I have already done so or not...
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and if i do so
is it really the correct thing to do?
or the correct way to do so?
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I just wonder sometimes
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just imagine if i do get into Med
(in the most highly unlikely circumstances, although I’m trying to remain optimistic...)
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and really lose my life into my job later
sigh... I wonder where everything leads after that...