Sovereignty

With a weak view of God's sovereignty, we crumble easily when difficulties come. We need to remind ourselves that He is sovereign over the passage of history  over the history of nations, and over the history of individual lives. At the same time He is gracious and good, loving His people and offering grace to strengthen us and steel us in times of trouble...

We are called to stand and proclaim the gospel, because it is the great Truth which all the world needs to hear...

“Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go.  Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.  Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

(Joshua 1: 7-9)

(Source: Brown L. (2010) Shining like Stars, p56)

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Despite everything around me...

...I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth. And after my skin has been thus destroyed, yet in my flesh I shall see God (Job 19:25-26)

priorities

Looking back the past few weeks, routine has become a strangely asphyxiating experience.

I told myself, after everything's been said, that I want to keep things chill as it is.

Whether it be because of the long car ride towards Kranji beach, a confrontation at dawn, or just my general resolution and conviction about the matter. 

But yet it's so hard to regulate everything that happens, whether it be from that strange interrogative experience, or just trying to stop myself from doing anything silly. It's as if there's something within me that's trying very hard to repress my own thoughts, emotions and behaviours.

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Why perhaps? I'm pretty clear I don't want to get involved in this whole game at the moment, as if it could be trivialised as a game, with very real lives involved.

But that doesn't change very much the way I feel, and I don't even know whether it's just wishful thinking, suggestion or otherwise.

Unless God gives me a sure enough 'green light' and signal that's the way to go. And it's not easy to simply claim that one is so sure about God's will and calling after all...

not as simple as leaving sheep's fleece out at night and checking asking God to cover it with dew at any rate... not as simple as asking for open and closed doors...

but I wonder when is the right moment then? I think I need to sort out my priorities at any rate... Since there is a time and season for everything (Ecc 3:1).

with or without you...

and you give yourself away...