Days beyond the 1 yr 10mths

its almost time before I end this season of my life, couple 2-3 more months
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while most have already done it and collected back the legendary pink ICs
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but either way... perhaps at this juncture, I’ve come to realise something
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I’ve learnt more to be alone these few months...
partly because I’m not willing to open up to most of my church friends,
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partly because most the the closer guy friends i have in SG seem like robots, devoid of any emotional capacity,
consistently in pursuit of ‘rationality’
(while I know yes they have feelings, but I guess its a sad guy mentality that one needs to hide his emotions)
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partly because all the people I trust and confide in are overseas... partly because uni life seems to suck everyone into it
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I really appreciate these people who have been there for me during my army life in on way or another
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In no particular order
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Tim
Petrina
Charles
Marc
Amanda

Tina
Ding
Christina

John
Dan
XL

Rach
Joyce
Melissa

During BMT:
Lamzy
Kenneth lee
James

OETI:
Jeremy

3AMB:
Sean Tan
Shawnrick
Yongshen

Regulars:
ME2 Ben
ME3 Lim
ME4 Jhon

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it seems rather sentimental,
the way I write these kind of appreciation lists ( which I guess a few of you who might read my blog or FB notes might stumble upon)
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one more step closer

I applied on time
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interview on
191110, 1400hrs (UTC +11)
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God knows my heart
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but I don’t even know mine anymore

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我不知道怎麽想

Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

'Til all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing that we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve

And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Sending it straight to gold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'm 'a tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that will light those ears
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away

This time, don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, all my secrets away

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20 years, of blessings and sorrows, thank You for taking care of me thus far

but life cant be a series of coincidences without intention

I can be so honest about everything to you
except this thing...

yeah I’m not the same as another irritating guy am I?

but its been hard to straighten out my thoughts for the past 4 years

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for my birthday now, I wish that God will make a way , unless it is not His way...

medicine, church, relationships,

everything that matters to me...