bitter, sweet, sorrow, joy

we see that ever so evident in the Christian walk
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Now we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now it is God who has made us for this very purpose and has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
(2 Cor 5:1-5)
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we have hope and rejoice because of what He has done for us, and we know we have hope for eternity, a heavenly dwelling which cannot be destroyed
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but we suffer while down here on earth, we do not know what tomorrow brings, be it poverty, loneliness, burdens, separations
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somehow this song - even while sung in mandarin today at Marc’s grandfather’s wake
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nearly brought tears to me
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I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
I don't borrow from it's sunshine,
For it's skies may turn to gray.
I don't worry o'er the future,
For I know what Jesus said,
And today I'll walk beside Him,
For He knows what is ahead.

Many things about tomorrow,
I don't seem to understand;
But I know Who holds tomorrow,
And I know Who holds my hand.

I don't know about tomorrow,
It may bring me poverty;
But the One Who feeds the sparrow,
Is the One Who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion,
May be through the flame or flood,
But His presence goes before me,
And I'm covered with His blood.
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we look to eternity, the tomorrow we cannot see
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but we know our lives are held in His hand, His plans
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so with regard to everything
be in university studies (NO CHARLES, I AM SO NOT DOING ACCOUNTANCY, THANK YOU VERY MUCH, ACCOUNTANCY IS NOT COOL)
or in relationships
in anything else in the future, career, God’s calling
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I know He knows best
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I guess thats all I need to know
even as I know God has called me to impact the world I live in
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even as it begins small, with me..

ATT C

taking this for the very first time since I enlisted
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excessive tiredness =/

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either way after being busy non-stop over the last few weeks, I guess its a good sabbatical
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being able to rest at home and enjoy the comfort of my bed and sleeping in....
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prob wont ever be doing this again anyway... unless I fall really sick...
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since the last few times I was sick I still went to camp either way...
due to having to do stuff under my job scope...
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well I guess I finally can get to do stuff I couldn’t find time to do for a long time
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1. write a letter and visit the post office(near my house) to post a letter overseas
2. Practice on my piano a bit
3. Pray and meditate a bit
4. REST at home
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Army stuff:
1. burn 2Lt Jhon’s REACH dvds
2. Do up the ducktours presentation ( canceled)
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either way yeah
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recently there’s been so much to post on this blog
but not enough time to reflect upon the things to be said
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the struggles of sin and temptation
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the outing on sat which left me very drained and struggling to fight something within me
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but I guess I’ll think about it...
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sigh =/