Paranoia

sometimes it seems that way
after what happened with regard to last year
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maybe I’m rather insecure... I’m scared that history repeats itself yet again...
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yet everything is a matter of perception

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one of my OETI buddies was sharing to me about his antics in liking a person
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“then they found out and told everyone”
“lan lan she find out and started avoiding me like siao”
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haha, at least i didn’t get it that bad... even though i was getting swanned left right centre 1-2 years ago,
but at least we remained friends haha
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yeah, I was a bit freaked out by the facebook incident... but yeah
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most people tell me to just laugh it off
since it’s really nothing
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haha

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yeah and I’m getting rather well...
seems like paranoia when i can mistake J low’s pic to be someone else
stupid lah, dunno why all the NSF’s with the same haircut look the same
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anyway today... a certain C HQ was trying so hard to get me into trouble
but he’s fighting a losing battle either way
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1. The PC doesn’t want to go through all the paper work and everything.
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2. The way C HQ pushes forward his argument will definitely annoy the PC... He’s not doing it right... I was simply trying to keep quiet ... needless to say who will get a better impression...
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3. The PC has a way better impression of me than C HQ, while I try to keep a positive attitude most of the time, C HQ normally complains...
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4. While C HQ might be able to get the support of some of the platoon mates, I also can get my own support from some of the others, including Luqman and some of the other malays,,,
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5. The PC knows that if he does do an investigation... and I get implicated... I’ll most likely push it up to the CI...
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essentially, the benefits of being a pseudo white-horse is showing through...
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...take that, ya stinkin b*stard...
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