Testing the water

Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds.And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but the boat by this time was a long way from the land,beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them.And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” 

 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

Matt 14:22-33

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We wonder what is it like to be able to take that step and leap of faith, to walk upon the uncertain waves and wind in the midst of the storm...

It was after GCF dinner, and the bunch of us who left back to NTU had this long, strange and semi awkward conversation along the entire stretch of Pioneer Road. Somehow everyone like to put out this phrase: "Test the water first."

But in the end what really matters is the faith and trust in God that He'll make things beautiful in the right place and time. So I guess it doesn't matter how difficult and uncertain the road ahead may be, but the important thing, the crux of the matter is to really keep our eyes focused upon Jesus. Look around and one begins to sink.

A few weeks back, we heard what Dr Tan Lai Yong shared during FN. One thing really struck me:
if all our prayer requests seems to revolve around the mundane things around us, have we actually realised how much God's sovereignty and glory transcends all these small things? That the God who feels the birds of the air and clothes the flowers of the field will surely also provide for us who is worth more than the grass which withers and dies?

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So far everything seems to be working out better than I expected I guess. But there's always this unsubstantiated fear that somehow something is going to go crashing down around me one day again...

Atlas

Heaven we hope is just up the road
Show me the way, Lord because I am about to explode