Prima Deli Chicken Pies are too sweet...

apologies for the really random blog title, couldn't think of a better one...

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Passion AC today ;went erm... shopping in the afternoon

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before heading for Passion AC

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quote removed on request

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prayer

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then the food

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accidentally bumping against alex...

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wasn't too hungry... tried a chicken drumstick that was too salty

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then an awesome Old Chung Kee karipok

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then tried some of the chicken pie that Tim and Kenneth said was good

"they are THE bomb... I think they're the prima deli ones"(kenneth)

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but they were too sweet and made me sick... ><

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worship... john/alex/tim/me/dan/amanda/petrina/evelyn/XL? seated in a row

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it was weird... somehow i decided to not care about anything, yet...

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a culture of not being "charismatic"

after all certain doctrines they promote incur heresy?

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God was there... in the emotions

but where were You in the Spirit?

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or maybe I'm just well...I was definitely blessed by the experience

yet something always seems to crush it all...

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"this people... honour me with their lips....... But their hearts are far from me..."(Isa 29 :13)

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I used to enjoy the "worship experience" ; the so called "Spiritual High"

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why am I so sceptic now?

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or maybe I dunno, I cannot deny a part of me... a part of me

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"If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."(Matt 16:24)

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going back in petrina's car to the bus stop

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sighz, it was a tiring day...

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you probably know me well enough...

why cant I let go?

I have no reason to feel sad...

Dream a little dream of me

heh

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today was baaad.... decided to sleep first at 9 and wake up later to do work cause i was so tired on Sunday , and ended up oversleeping today

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Saturday - video production/clicking for Youth service, lol met Ng Zhi Guang and Yang Jian's brother(who commented something about me being professional in the way i did stuff lol)

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then rushed over to Zhi Guang's house for PPP(post primers program/potluck)

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DotA-ing until 1140 lol

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went home and SLEPT at 1- 7

woke up for church

clicking/video/lights for first service(nuts sia, running around like a crazy chicken)

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Clicking for second service

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shopping at vivo for a bit

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went home around 6

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dinner

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Ignore the next part if you don't understand it(some technical geek nonsense)

Continued working on the Boot camp set up, Wheew

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Finally settled all the issues, including iTunes library sharing,Windows Media Center syncing(Managed to get all my AAC files to work =) using a combination of Orban/coding technologies aac/aacPlus decoder, and WMP tag support plugin.

Haha about the only thing about windows that actually beats apple front row hands down. 

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WGA activation issues (OEM license ) had some issues due to the crapped up M$ anti-piracy nonsense detected my Bootcamp VM as a different machine, Office 07 (Again the stupid OGA nonsense ,I used up all my licenses already,although my comp crashed so I literally wasted a license =(

(luckily I found a reliable by-pass)

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FYI W/O GA refers to Windows/Office genuine advantage,

And no, it doesn't give you any advantages of that sort,  its just the annoying thing that behaves like spyware and inform MS if you've installed an unauthorised version of Office/ windows, which is quite cocked up, esp if you've reformatted/changed the comp etc. doesnt has a de-authorisation function either, so unlike adobe apps, which you can transfer a license when one changes computer.

Rather than being an anti-piracy measure it is more of an annoyance to all users, software pirates or not, since software pirates can always figure out a bypass method/crack, and legal owners of the licenses get exposed to this kind of crap.

!@#$%  this Genunine (dis)Advantage thing, it only serves to Diss ppl off... in short, GA(h)

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and CS !!! haha

playing CS with a trackpad is fun 

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eitherways it took

1. 24 hour download to get the DVD files from the MS distribution site (since the OEM version I got from my compaq doesn't give one a dvd(only a crapped up Recovery disc chock full of bloat), which was damn annoying, since I couldn't repair my comp myself when the OS got corrupted.

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2. 1 hour compiling it into an install DVD

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3. And another 2 more days of installing and reinstalling vista ( and Boot Camp assistant failed. Had to use disc Utility when booted into DVD to manually create 2 partitions, run the Bootcamp manager in OSX, install Vista , reboot into OSX DVD disc Utility  to create another FAT32 partiton to allow interaction between the vista partition and OSX, which took me a long time to figure out, especially with the number of kernel panics Boot Camp assistant caused, as well as corrupting the HD, so I had to run the a heck lot of fsck-s on my disc to repair it.

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oh yah for those you dont know, fsck stands for File System ChecK, which is the linux/unix of DOS/NT's scan disk check.

not some obscene word. 

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3. and yet another 2 days to set up the programs, including the itunes library syncing, WMC, and all the GA(h) activation crap 

pff, as i type this,  GA complains again

decided to enable graphics acceleration, but GA didn't like it and wanted me to reactivate. tried to internet activate but apparently Vmware tools blocked the activation server. So I had to use phone activation, repeating 9 sets of 6 digits to some retarded auto-answer machine and receive back another 9 sets 

Boo...

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wheew...

not what.. lol 

maybe Ubuntu Linux... but again, don't really see the point, Mac OSX already can do all that linux can do and more

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sorry if you'll not a tech geek, but anyway links are for people interested in doing that, and chancing upon my blog after a random Google search

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eitherways was really tired, went to sleep until 130, woke up by alarm to do bio prac, but continued sleeping...

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zzz had another weird dream.... this time in the choir room(it looked like the KBL?) and apparently there was some random BB HQ event(in the KBL???!?), there was something to do with A.E.F., and bleah. I guess it was after the Zhi Guang house thing that lead me to thing about such stuff, but haiz....

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"where is Jalan Naga Sari?"(me)

checks road directory finds it,

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"Vanda Road...,"(Mum) ( just before we turn into the Jalan Naga Sari road)

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eh... seesh lah grrr... dunno why my mum has the knack of saying weird things in the middle of nowhere that actually have a connotation or link within it... like saying someone's name when she joked to me about some r/s stuff the other time.(and I happened to be thinking about the same it at that moment of time.

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hmm what if ... , considering how a lot of people actually read my blog (evident form the bio class incident which i will mention further down)

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nmind lah.. its just i need a bit of time to put to death that part of me... yeah... i really dunno how to say it... its just... well... if its the right and best choice, I'll just swallow the bitter pill and move on...

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it was a nice dream, but the kind of dream that makes one sad after one wakes up.... haiz

along with being stressed out because i was LATE

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wish... i dunno maybe its me, or is it i never get to talk with the people i want to talk to now a-days? would like to make a comment about stuff, but nmind i guess... too troublesome to PW protect a post like this 

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was late, but i managed to bypass prefects and councillors to my locker, dump my bag there, and go to the audi without being stopped.

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sitting between Chin Seow Moy and Shawn Wong, around near Petrina

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dunno lah...

i remember Zhe Xian's comment sometime ago... and my response to him

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then we have SL1 geog, and Bio lesson

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"eh Emil do you have a blog?"(Mdm Yong)

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"er yah"(me)

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*the whole class sniggers(evident that something is wrong with the public-ness of my blog)

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"I didn't write anything offensive"(me)

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"no lah I was just a little bit surprised to see something about Evelyn and me, nothing offensive"(Mdm Yong)

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she was probably referring to this post.

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lol

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rugby finals A div

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some siao Fat guy messing around

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playing MAME with Martin behind a "our glorious dead" war memorial instead of cheering

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laugh and smile 

weep and frown

thorns and crowns

silence and sound

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 in all... God can be found

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MRT ride back with john , Petrina, Amanda

(decided not to take bus in the end)

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John you're a retard...

nice "I though you knew already?"

I wasn't supposed to know anyway, it was more of a "rumour" kind of thing which i picked up

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oh well

really long post

hope you don't get bored with my raving and ranting.

Weird Dreams

well

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I won't do a Kenneth and recall every single part of it

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but well... excerpts for the sake of recalling it

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cast: all the choir BB primers ppl(which is only 3 other people) 

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Ding mysteriously transferred to my Chem class for some weird reason, and we just left the Lab

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"I know what this means"... lol

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and Eve and Feli suddenly become best of friends for some strange reason

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and some random incident with a non existent fire hose next to the circular classrooms.

(don't worry I didn't murder eve with it, I'm not so sadistic or vengeful...)

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ah well

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at least I don't get ... ... ... nightmares anymore

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rarrr...

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heh

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dreams are supposedly what happens to be at the back of one's mind...

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and possibly what one might hope for...

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but, they're still dreams in the end...

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anyway

'yesterday' aka Wednesday, was the slackest school day for me this whole year

=.=

the idea of attending just 1 lesson in school only, and attending choir seems quite  a fun concept

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Esp if it's one's favourite lesson, haha I love Bio.

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NS medical check up

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from drawing 4-5 vials of my blood(my arm still feels cramped after the NS guy poked my arm)

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to other stupid random things

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PES D

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but that simply means to be determined

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hopefully its a Pes C

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wait for 1 month lor...

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and some random IQ test

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total waste of time

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although it was amusing to hear the RJC guy swear

"oh F*** , I forgot my differentiation"

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the duration was about 1 hour, as compared to the 4-5 hours stated to the letter

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walked to church after that, got changed

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after which went to Habourfront Vivo for an early lunch, and walked around a bit

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was really empty

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Compared to what i was used to on Sundays.

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wanted to buy Paddy Clarke from Page One, no $$$

poo

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went back to school, slacked in library until about 2

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bio class

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choir(in which I ended up getting chased out of the CPA for voicing my reservations about yoga)

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and Stuart wasn't around

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which means the tenors were in a little trouble

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i wonder

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how did I end up being one of the anchor singers,along with SongY

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and after SongY left... lol

only me

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ah well

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its stupid right...

the more one tries not to think about stuff

the more likely it'll pop up in unexpected places

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haiz

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a Labour day to labour on my WL

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oh well

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good think I'm not dreaming about Hedda Gabler and Bernarda Alba. the same way i ended up dreaming about exams during Os...

mile-S

the weekend.... was tiring

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with a matter of:

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friday afternoon(2-6pm live praise prac)

lost my temper at XL... bleah...

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friday evening (8-10pm Gracestar prac) 

David leong... Luke.... Guoshen ... Juniper

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saturday morning(live praise)

pseudo electric guitar is fun

and a lot of pads 

too tired to play war games

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JY prac later

FL on r/s again... a depressing topic

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shopping at vivo with my sisters to buy their clothes

bought huck finn from sans bkshop

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Sunday

JY

hmm... 2 songs... small setup (acc guitar  and keys)

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did the piano low bass sound and covered the highs with pads (double rack with a electric piano and X50)

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commendation haha... by Kevin and Jocelyn... that was nice... haha

the honor shd go to God though... for giving me those gifts

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GS 

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and lunch... then home... sleeep

rAHHH

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and math blues

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heh

i guess... it seems like a travelled a hundred miles... been literally burnt out

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heh..

and CNY concert

disconcerting... a glance, a bright smile , another look, and again the same

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and sighz

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one remembers daoing a person last year... early in jan

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one wonders if history repeats itself with different people... so much for chng

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but again..  it doesnt mean a thing... again there is P.R. 2

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I dunno  really... but its scary... so much for chng

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and choir ends at 7 today... a different sort of assurance :) ... and a ride home with rodney talking again about Christianity and all that... although I'm not yet targeting the root... but I dont really have much time left... yet I guess... its not an overnight thing... it has to be a slow and steady walk... in the sense that I already can talk very openly about stuff

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we'll see ... I guess... time will tell...

Seek Him while He may found

Yet again… while posting from Thailand… KK, (the hotel has wireless, yay… but  its super laggy)
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Since Fab can’t do his imba recollection of a days activities on his blog ( my laptop haha) I shall do a quick break down…

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DAY 1:
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Airport at Budget Terminal, Ate the most horrible chicken pie I ever ate in my life…
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(1^st hitch up)
Lee Min Air E-ticket dates…. 7/8
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In a sense the team was kinda of worried… how on earth … the flight is fully booked…..
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… Christine…. who was there to send us off… who pulled out… amazing intervention by God… Lee Min takes Christine ticket
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(2^nd Hitch up)
The bus was too small to take all our luggage… kinda freaky… luckily we managed to get a van of sort to transport the stuff
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(3^rd hitch up)
An extra Long bus journey (sleep rocks)… and …. Steam erupts from our bus as we alight…. It just broke down…
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One is bought to a realisation of the faithfulness of God… and His providence
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lol
Ah Jarn Song Sri still remembers me lol
a rather more subdued… welcome dinner… somehow… KKCS wasn’t what it was 1.5 years ago
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to the first timers… Thai hospitality was fantastic… to others like Garreth thought it was less than usual…
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perhaps, there more that meets the eye…
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perhaps, I wasn’t focused… enough… not that I was thinking of the usual stuff…
I sort of resolved not to(or avoid doing so) during the trip…. A sort of “thought fast” if you get what I mean, I’m not fasting of food…
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prayer meeting… Garreth… sorting out other stuff… meeting with Charles
“somehow… there is some things among us that needs to be surrendered to God”(‘neth)
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DAY 2:
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church visitations… I went over to some Nam **** church( I dunno some weird thai… I know the first word means water)
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the pastor was friendly and stuff… the worship was good (the church seems to have a more charismatic Pentecostal background)
interesting message about holiness and God’s perfection by an Ang Moh missionary…
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and networking after that… hmm interesting…
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HIV Orphanage visit…
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the kids were really happy in a sense when they played with us… and stuff… memories of Phuket WOW with my classmates resurface as we played catching and all manner of wild games with them…. Child-like faith… as Petrina put it during group debrief later… somehow… we were blessed by them more than we blessed them
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and dinner later … some steamboat/teppanyaki stuff…  lol in groups… we had 2 tables for our group…. My table however was a bit… imba…
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We had
Mr Wesley Cheong( still okay)
John Tay ( omg… the monster eater)
Petrina  (the biggest eater among the girl primers)
me(heh… I have a pretty good appetite)
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Hmm we ended up way faster than the other table.... lol... when Mr Ng ordered extra beef we koped most of it... later we ended up koping vegs fromt the other table too
and this is what we get lol:

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haha

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But on a more sober mode

Seek the LORD while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. (Isaiah 55:6)

I need to get my focus right... and Lord... open my eyes to see You... I want to see You glorified above all...

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help us to seek you with all our heart...

and internet starts failing me at this point... boo hoo

Cheesecake

Tale of 2 mice
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2 mice left their hole to find food... they find a mouse trap loaded with the most delicious cheese ever, orangey cheddar, not your typical yellow lousy parmesan.
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one of the mice drew near to take the cheese, while the other stayed back, remembering the 2nd rule grandpa mouse said to him, "thou shalt not take cheese from mousetraps"
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the other mouse goes forward and starts feasting at the cheese... initially the trap didnt spring on him, while the first mouse looked longingly at the cheese...
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and the trap sprung, and the mouse got its head chopped off... the first mouse still looked at the cheese, and wondered whether the rule still applied, even though the trap had beeen sprung...
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and he wonders whether the traps reset themselves
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before he inches forward to nibble at the cheese, yet he feels gulity about his companion mouse
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and yet he remembers cheese rule 1, thou shalt get cheese from the sacred cheese of life, found in an open boat which he has to visit every saturday.
(oops what am i talking)
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I mean he needs the bread of life, whoever who eats of it shalt not grow hungry,
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And Oreo cheesecake($3) for lunch today
cheesecake doesn't satisfy, and eating too much of it makes one sick... the first few nibbles were nice though
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Ok I should stop this cheese business

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Sunday
as I went forward after the service to sit on one of the front pews looking at the Big Cross , longing just for another touch from God...
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and I turn left, and see this big board that has been there since youth day 2006, it says
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TRUST
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painted in big orange yellow letters
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yet back home, resorting the BB photos and requesting for more
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and slow MSN DL speeds and solving winRA(a)R problems and bombardment of chem rubbish quesitonswhich I havnt done
oh well
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Monday
did my EA1 homework from 4-5 , QT 5-530
then off to take bus(my mum was working Night shift)
a 963 passed before me, to my utter irritation, why is it when ever i need a 963 to school it never comes... yet now i wanted my Mcdonald's breakfast
5 minutes later, 67 comes, and i board it at 655
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drop off at Mcdonalds at 610, buy a muffin and milo peng before going off to the KAP bustop to munch and wait for the bus 74
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and as expected, 74 did come at 620.. haha... i learnt from last time, the next bus at 635 would make me late...
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and i guess up i go, to the 2nd deck, to find russell see, stonning, and Amanda G. studying chem and wearing the ultimate dao machine( made by apple, and its called an iPod)
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sat in front of russell, attempted some conversation with him, but it was like talking to a stone wall.
so i give up and plonk out chem to study... lol..... was thinking of taking out my dao machine too
but decided against it, besides it was only a short journey
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FireAC, Give us clean hands, and Open our eyes of my heart
and Faith...
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and Talbot attempts to confiscate my bible during chapel....lol... like errrr.....
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Custodian day
nice pledges that none of us can recite properly
vay ko no maa ger
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and math centipedes
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Chinese B waste time (Tang Jie not around)
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Geog, Tim Lim ,
befor that heard from the SL1 chem techer that Chiam wasn't around and I happily assumed no chem test
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EA1 that was enjoyable for once, Jean Luah refusing to come, which means
1) no IOP
2) Runima came, finally a lot more cheerful and it was an interesting lesson at least
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Math again, differenciation with Gina Ong
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Chem: and the SL1 chem teacher comes to give the TEST !!!!! ARRRR
no
i didnt re-revise
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nice what on earth is Maxwell-Boltz graph?????
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and she says open book
oh my
yay that was easy then
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it was funny to see John Tay parading in halfway through the test... he assumed free-period
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and after that down to the admin room, and Lua and milk and arguments that Bio is better than physics(my former best subject before i ditched it in favor of bio)
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Today
Overslept.... zzzz no QT
and it was a horrible day....
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Although tried CS to make myself feel better, but it only gives momentary satisfaction to (snipe/mow dow with a Para machine gun/headshot with AK-47) bots running amok with knives, or stab frozen bots in the head. oh well, I guess like DotA, CS is only fun when you play with friends you know well.
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but the prayer meeting at the end was good i guess
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only God can satisfy i guess
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off to a nap before TOK essay
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Schools back

for a wonder i decided to post Again... about school...lol this will go under the Tag, (Boring life)
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Day1
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Went back to school took public transport for once since
1 my mum couldnt send me(night shift)
And
2 My sis could either(night shift --> last minute work on project)
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For i wonder i managed to catch the 615 Bus(second 963 bus) and arrive in school at 640,
(ironically catching the 555 Bus (first bus) would result in 1 reaching school at 630. not 620 as one would expect)
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back in school FireAC was combined with Alastair's group for once... ... arrived there(rooftop) at 645 to find only 2 people there, namely Lua stonning at one corner and ... Amanda ... sitting right in the middle apparently doing QT. I ended up pacing around the place before lying down on the floor and gazing at the sky,in an effort to take my mind off ... certain things ...
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That place is one of the more beautiful places in the school, away from all the noise and busyness
of school in the cool of the morning, with the clock tower's top showing in the background and the morning sky a nice grey blue.
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And Kenneth had to interrupt my skygazing by behaving like some overgrown kid and jumping over me... seesh I not Really in the mood for your craziness you know... keep me sane please
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Ok Fast forward a bit to chapel
we sung some really nice Hymns today for once(Amazing Grace and When I survey the Wondrous Cross)
but these hymns had to be desecrated by a few things:
1. Grace Kwee singing Amazing Grace , ... didn't have to hear all the sniggering from certain people...(twas Grace that taught my heart to fear)
2. Ridiculously fast tempo for the hymns... hymns like these should be Sung SLOWLY, i don't care if you sing hymns like Trust and Obey fast(which they never do) , but certain hymns sound nice only when they are sung slowly
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We got a nice speaker talking about addiction, lol was quite informative
And after chapel I Obtained a free copy for the gideons bible(the NT psalms and proverbs bible)
Pity they couldnt give the whole bible, since my bible at the moment is falling apart, (I.e. i need a new Bible asap)
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back in Class
Cielo got her voice back lol, but she's still abusing it like nobodies business, would be surprised if she loses it again
first lesson was Bio practical
Broke a measuring cylinder :( $2 flies away):
got my phone confiscated because i was taking a picture of the broken glass lol
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Xl is in my SL classes now, makes me freak out to see him taking down notes during the EL A1 class under WPL
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during recess we got chased out by the HL chinese B teacher, who seems to think that people are following the new timetable now , which isnt the case
so we left the class to let him teach a non-existent class(or a class which only had steven and a bunch of people coming in at the end of the recess period)
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last lesson was Math.... and the class size is ridiculously large(32) and Mr Goh freaks out(with him being sick(coughing like a hag) at that time)
Anyway he says he is going to petition to split class
hopefully if they split i can go to the new teacher's(hopefully it being Mr Azmi or Mr Rao) class
lol
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went to the BB room after school , and had a few brain cells killed by
1. Kenneth's retardedness(scribbling Emil sucks on the BB room computer to destress )
2. Steven's lameness(stupid Puns..... I really want to Punch him lol)
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Day 2
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lol relatively uneventful
Arrived at 640am to the FireAC area to find a similar empty area as yesterday except No Lua stoning in 1 corner, and ... Amanda ... doing Qt at the opposite wall.
I went to the other wall and played guitar until Tim, Fab and the others came
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Kenneth later was talking about FireAC's directive
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We had rather uneventful lessons today
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Interesting notes:
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Got my EL A1 test back and scored better than the people beside me (17/25) by some sort of a miracle, since
1.I Didn't take Lit for 2 years since sec 2
2. I had not submitted a single assignment before the test
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Chiam Kok Chong calling Mr Talbot "Mister Tablet" in Chem class,
Lol his pronunciation is Horrible, although he is quite a good teacher
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Going for WoW(Window of the World, not World of Warcraft) OEP(Overseas Education Programme in Thailand , Phuket , quite a nice destination, however wishing i was going to KKCS (Khon Kaen Christian School) instead, at least i know the people and places there better, after going there last year for Mission trip
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EE topic proposal got rejected by Mr William Lai ,crap, now have to find another.
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Other depressing emotions that I ...randomly... feel every now and then still happening ,
Grrr when am I going to Get over it completely.
oh well
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thats my Boring life for you
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now don't ask me post everyday lol